My Archived Journal

i just love dumping past complains here. they're in a mess, don't bother to read it. random dates. i read it just to reminisce the good ol days. i just realised how bimbotic i was last time. just look at my words 3 years ago.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

       

 

12 July 2002  [school's "Talent Bazaar" event]

Everythin' went totally wrong today. Everythin' and anythin'! Arghh!!!!!!! Firstly, in the morning, flag raising din go smoothly for me... Whereas Darryl kept claiming it was so "shiok" coz everythin' went smoothly for him! Argh!!!!!~ Better pray hard that monday's gonna be fine! 

Secondly, the "PICKPOCKETS CLAN" took my money AGAIN!~ How sick can it get? Some more this time i din leave my wallet unattended on the table! This time my wallet was in my bag! Hrmph!!!! Pamela has became part of the "PICKPOCKETS CLAN" since she sort of betrayed me and told them where my bag was. 

Ice-shaving was fun. Collecting money was fun too. LoL~... I think Mrs Tay sort of made losses instead of profits cause [mainly] Chi Guan [i think call him "pear" better lah~] ate about 10 free cups of "shave ice". U noe what, i think he's goin to be diagnosed with diabetes sooner or later. Hahahahaha~ I was juz kiddin...

Stupid Tian Qi took my money again. And of course with the help of Yvonne again. Haiz~ I'm so tired of chasing my money back. Next time, if they take my money again, i'll just sit back and wait for them to return it to me at the end of the day. I just realised I've been stupid all the while chasing them for my money.

YOU NOE WHAT!? Now, for nothing I lost 5 bucks! I'm not kiddin' u noe! I'm really fed-up, pissed off and angry with them! I'm never goin to forgive them especially TIAN QI!!!!!!! All my scrimping and saving goes to the drain. From my untouched 29 bucks to 24 bucks. Wah lau, how can like that!!!!!! I lost 5 bucks just for nothing! This is just not fair! I can't stand it anymore! Next week, I'll make sure my 30 bucks allowance stays untouched! 

8 July 2002

Haha... Got myself some really nice and down-to-earth clothes. Yipee! I'm so happy but i'm totally broke now... :'( Wad a lazy afternoon I'm having... Working on the PC... 

30 June 2002

Today Brazil versus Germany. Tuff fight i suppose. Honestly i'm just bias cause i think Brazil are a bunch of great pretenders if u ask me. [No offence, okay?] As for Germany, there are cute guys like Klose [and not to forget, they can play well!] So, I'm rooting for Germany!~ Basically, I support Korea cause she's an Asian country wad... And not to forget cute guys like Ahn Jung Hwan and Seol Ki Hyeon too...[hee..hee..] Cha Doo Ri's not bad either. Lee Chun Soo has a baby-face. My dad and my sisters call him "baby-face". He's not bad either. Hmmz.  They all can play well also wad... 

29 June 2002

Pamela is being so ridiculous. What has her betting losses gotta do with me? Now, for nuthin, I owe her a treat. Argh, so unreasonable rite? Just bcoz i said "Korea will win." den she go and bet wif her brother. She said it's ALL my fault. Yvonne also said "Korea will win." rite? Simply not fair. Oh well, altho' Korea got 4th place, and lost to the Turks, they tried their best and were the first Asian country who got so far. 3 cheers for Korea!

28 June 2002

I exercised a LOT today [Totally exhausted]. Full stop. P.E. were as usual today and i can' believe Mr Siva put me in the PATHETIC group. PATHETIC group means every p.e. lesson = tuff tuff exercise. The other group were more fortunate, they could play games during P.E. lesson u noe... Haiz, JUST BCOZ I FAILED MY STANDING BROAD JUMP i have to go thru this. Neva mind, I'll look on the bright side and get healthy and fit, den go back home no need to exercise liao...  

After school was the worst part. It was a total disaster. Another "P.E." lesson. Yvonne took my 25bucks and passed it around to some irritating idiots like Tianqi and Timothy. I was like running the whole time, screaming, panting, and whining around the school. Seemed like Tianqi had nuthin betta to do. Worst still, he passed 10bucks to Kaa Lok too! U can't imagine how fed-up/pissed off/dead tired i was just now! Some of my money was wif yvonne, den tianqi, den timothy, den kaa lok. Not only they took my money and took turns to bully me, they took my swatch, my bus-pass and my EZ-Link card. How humiliating you noe!!!... I can't believe i was in two ponytails in primary sch, man, what was i thinkin??! I walked around the class, whining... and so many people in the classroom enjoying seeing me get bullied by them. So pathetic and humiliating! Damm, I must learn how to take care of my wallet...

22 June 2002

I'm felt totally sick early in the morning about 3. TOTALLY. I walked like the zombie towards the attic getting my medicine. I'm glad that i din fall. Pain like crazy. Zombie-walked into the kitchen, poured a glass of HOT water and swallowed the pills. Den I zombie-walked into the bedroom and climbed up the double-decked bed as if i were to fall ANYTIME. However, the pills were totally pointless man... Pain continued, so my whining continued. My grandma woke up and helped me, but i really hate the smell of medicated oil. I felt no better so i went to the bathroom. I puked a whole lot. The feeling of puking is TERRIBLE. Smells, though. I looked at seaweed. Eeeks, I actually ate that man... 

Woo~ hoo! Korea won again and again! First they beat Italy [which was totally unbelievable...], den today they beat Spain. I was totally screaming at the TV screen when that Spanish guy missed his kick [or rather the Korean goalkeeper did a great job] in the penalty kick. I can say that Korea did us Asians proud again and again~ 

1 June 2002

Yesterday was break camp. Break camp for Combined Uniformed Group camp. It was the toughest camp I EVER attended. But it was quite a fun and nice experience for me. Compared to my girl guides camp... Haiz~ I'm totally speechless. 

1st Day: I rushed to school taking a taxi...[Nah... not my dad's] I paid for my own fare man... Haha... I was in the same group [Panther] as Yvonne. What a coincidence, rite? Pear was also in that group. He damn funny... First time we had our meal, he was like, "Woah... buffet!" I can't help laughing man... First thing was foot drill. I've learnt to shout: "Yes, Sir!" and "No, Sir!" The whole camp was like "Yes, Sir!", "No, Sir!" I remembered we ate with our fingers/hands on the first day. First thing i thought of: MY AH-MAH. I was sort of lagging on the first day. On the first day, bathing was WAITING, WAITING, WAITING. Luckily i got out in time. Time was totally limited. Lecture was next. Lecture was quite boring... Night maze was supposed to be fun but screwed up for my group cause we didn't finish bcoz of lack of time [again]. 

2nd day: Not supposed to bathe in the morning! What nonsense! But it was an order. Haiz. PT was so sick. Run/jog for 3 rounds, and some intervals of push-ups or sit-ups whenever we sort of lagged and walked. I sorta hate it cause i think i could die if i did it everyday in a row. Nah... just kidding... I was exaggerating... But it was indeed tough. "Push-up position DOWN!!!", "One, Sir!, Two Sir!, Three, Sir! and so on..." U know what, we gals were expected to do guys' kinda push-ups! How sick was that. For me, it was "awww... my tummy hurts..." whenever i did sit-ups or guys' kinda push-ups. Normally, I would totally feel nothing when i do push-up during Mr Siva's P.E lessons [cause... aiyah.. u shud know]  Keke... They had these leadership and group cooperation games like ice-breakers, etc. One interesting item was to get a pail with water out of a surrounded area with a rope. And we aren't suppose to step in the surrounded area. Yvonne came out with ideas, Pear came up with ideas too. His ideas were hilarious. In the end we can't get the pail out. We got it out once... but the water were totally out of the pail. They sort of dragged the pail and messed up. Damn funny. We had to re-do again. Another was the "supporters" game. That really freaked me out. I was the first victim. So scary... I was supposed to fall backwards and the supporters were my fellow group members. Reminds you of NKF charity show huh? But something was inside me: FEAR. I feared of hurting myself. I feared of breaking my backbone if supporters failed to support me and let go. I had a feeling I would really fall to my back. My eyes were sort of watery but I DIDN'T CRY. I made that really clear. I feared of falling backwards, so Mr Edmund Song demonstrated once for me and told me it was safe if i trusted my group members and if they are really prepared and stable to catch hold of me. And indeed, my feeling was right. The supporters didn't catch hold of Mr Song. No, I shud emphasise on the guy supporters. The gal supporters caught hold of Mr Song's head. But i think he fell to his back cause the guys were TOTALLY DREAMING or whatever they were thinking or doing. Okay, Mr Song fell on his back for the first attempt. For the second attempt, he fell to his back again. This proves what? U really shud know. I was so shocked and scared. For the third attempt he fell nicely and was caught hold of. But unfortunately, i think he accidentally kicked the table and his camera [expensive one] broke. Then he said our group "cannot make it" and referred us to another station for us to fall but not to be supporters. Haiz. But I'm really thankful that i didn't fall on my back. Or break my bone or something like that. Campfire was quite a screwed up but i think it was one level better than sec3 campfire. Dinner was after that. Then the CI said we couldn't take a shower after dinner. What? Already 10 something and for the whole day we didn't bathe and stink like hell! So uncomfortable, I thought. After dinner, we walked with disappointment and back to our bunks. Then the siren rang. FIRE DRILL. Everybody rushed to the outside. [outside the school entrance]. They said 10 people were missing after counting the strength of all the 10 groups. We were taught first-aid in the afternoon. We were expected to rush back to the school building and search for  the 10 people and the school building was "supposedly" to be burnt down in 5 minutes. We ran about the school building searching for casualties and ran back to the school entrance. They reprimanded us for being slow. And they reported that one person "died" and was left behind in a corner. They scolded us for not being efficient enough. After that, they said we could take a shower. So that was part of their act after all. When we were allowed to disperse, I ran as fast as i could back to the gals' bunker [hall]. I was one of the 3 to reach the hall first and take our stuff to the shower room. In this camp, I've learnt to be fast, or else you'll get to lose out. 

Last day... I was so glad but scared at the same time! I knew my mom surely gonna kill when i get home... [My exams results SUX, I admit!]

4 April 2002

Fed-up. Really fed-up.!!!! I'm fed-up with people and myself. E-maths - drowning. A Maths - dying. Chinese - as usual. Chemistry - Wished I could understand my teacher. Physics - quite a okay... but still don't quite understand. Social studies, English, History - Still fine with me. But now I've come up with a conclusion. I'll go for tuition 2-3 days in a week unlike 1 day in a week basis. If that really continues... I'm really really dead. Fed-up. Fed-up!!!!!!!! Some people are so petty and bad-tempered. Then I must as well don't talk to her AT ALL.

1 April 2002

Today's April Fool's Day. Damn. I've been fooled by Pamela. She told me was a lizard at my seating area in class. I got a shock and I screamed like crazy... and she told me, "April Fool!!!" So DAMN embarrassing. Yvonne's another one. Hrmphh!!! I've been humiliated in school the whole day!!! Sick, sick, sick. I failed my A.maths re-test. Sob... I have no intention to go JC now. Lost all hopes. On the other hand, I'm quite happy at home. I don't have to hang the damn laundry today!!! The washing machine broke down. Great.

29 March 2002

Yesterday was break camp. I'm sorta glad that I'm back home. I missed my dog and my computer when i was in camp. First thing when i got out of the taxi, Winnie was jumping up and down. I didn't manage to type yesterday's entry. I was dead tired. Man... I admit I slept like a pig the moment i reached home yesterday.  

Camp was sorta fun. But I hate the sleeping part. Damn. I fed so many mosquitoes during the night. The second night, I had ants crawling all over my head. My friends were itching like hell too. We were supposed to wake up @ 7am the next morning. We were forced out of our tents by the mosquitoes and the army of ants marching happily all over us @ 4am. We took a shower immediately and @ about 5am, we moved all our stuff to the multi-purpose hall. We slept there all the way to 7am. Woah. It was so damn cooling there and we all slept soundly. Pamela woke me up. I wished i could sleep longer. The nine of us (Pam, Si Rui, Amanda, Xiao Yun, Debbie, Yvonne, Liwen, Emily, and including me) were all lying like dead bodies outside the multi-purpose hall. Yvonne was lying, facing flat on the ground, sleeping. I really wonder how she slept like that. 

I sort of smuggled my radio receiver, they couldn't find it coz i hid it very nicely. But even if they find it, I would say that I brought my receiver coz it has a lamp attached to it. During free time of the camp, we played poker cards. I'm glad that I didn't lose. We didn't have a cash-on-line thing, so we jotted down the debts on a paper and settled it after break camp.

I really loved canoeing. One thing I regretted most, is that, I didn't bring my sun-tanning spray!!! I brought only sun-block. Argh. I paired up with Emily for canoeing... As usual, we got into trouble. I was at the front, so Emily was at the back, giving directions. Firstly, we hit into the kellong, secondly, we hit into the kellong again, and smelt gas. Thirdly, we went too far and can't get back. The poor SL got to follow us every moment in case we got into trouble again. Keke~ Damn, the worst part was, I got a leg cramp in the water... and couldn't get up. Basically... I entirely used up my energy and I didn't eat much in the morning. Me and emily can't even carry the canoe to the sea. We got help from one of the SLs. But after all, it was a fun canoeing experience for me.

Ab-sailing (dunno izzit spelt like that) was sort of a frightful one for me. I couldn't balance on the pole. I wasn't stable. At that moment, I felt like crying. I held my tears and went down with a fast-thumping heart. I knew that if i cried, it would be so embarrassing coz I even cried for the blood test. I loved the zip-line (a.k.a flying fox). Mr Rumi tried to scare me in the sense that, he kept staring at me in a funny way, and asked me not to cry. He saw me whining when i was getting ready for ab-sailing. Zip-line was so damn fun, like roller-coaster. Rock-climbing was fun too. But those SLs bullied me. When I was done and wanted to get down, they hung me up there and asked stupid questions. I screamed and they didn't care and continued asking me stupid questions. I'll really remember them for life.

Yvonne sang an NPCC song which made us laughed the whole day. She sang it in a cute way, and what made us really laughed, was her actions. In the bus (when we were heading back to school), Kevin, Stanley and Alex sang that song again. They also sang other dirty NPCC songs. After all those singing in the bus, I switched to my receiver, and decided to get a nap. Suddenly Yvonne pulled my hand and raised it up. And the class was kicking a big fuss outta it. Argh. I was listening to my receiver. Yvonne is really gonna get it. The bus passed by my house... I could have got down. In the end, I took taxi with Si Rui and Emily.

23 March 2002

Another 3 more days to sec 3 camp... Wow... I' so damn excited! There's canoeing too... How interesting. Just make sure I don't drink salty water there... Uh-oh, I've got so many things to bring.... how can they expect me to stuff it all in ONE bag???!!! Goodness... Somemore cannot bring handphone or discman. If that's the case, how am i gonna sleep? I got an idea: Talk and talk and yak and yak through the whole night. Hmmm... I dunno whether to bring my camera or not... ('',) 

Okay... I'll be back again with the entry of my sec 3 camp experience

9 March 2002

Awesome... the skool hols are here again! Good... I can finish watching "Liu Xing Hua Yuan" a.k.a Meteor Garden. Hua Ze Lei's (Hanazawa Rui, better known as "Zai Zai") so cute~! I think he's the only nice looking lad in f4. The others are... (I'll juz keep my mouth shut) =X 

Unfortunately, I did BADLY for my common tests. I better pull my socks during the skool hols besides watching "Liu Xing Hua Yuan"... Damn... I can't believe I failed my social studies. I wrote so~ much, and my teacher gave me a pathetic mark. Better write shorter next time... And I know failing A.maths and Chinese is inevitable... Chinese Language sux, A.Maths's tough!

Camp's goin' to be quite fun!~ (maybe) Better bring my Discman... I can't sleep without music!!! This is my 2nd camp experience... The first one was a girl guides' camp. I think I kinda disliked it although I gotta admit that its fun... So much backstabbing and all... Arghh. Dun wanna talk about it.

Hmmz... I managed to "survive" through the 1st dose of Hepatitis B without sobbing... Yay! But there was, i admit, a slight pain...

13 July 2002

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -> is all i can type! I had the worst nightmare last night! I dreamt about what is going to happen on Monday morning. Creepy. I dreamt of Mr Gopal asking me to tie my pony-tail properly, den u noe, the worst was the flag-raising part! This time, there was no knot, but something looked funny about the flag... I can't remember... Dreams and nightmares can't last long in human's memory... But it was a total nightmare for me! Argh, why did i dream of such stuff?!!! Weird. 

Girl guides was the same again. Sing songs, do clauses, den play games lor... Today no break, though. I was the only sec3 who went for meeting today. Pamela was absent. Liwen, mebbe she busy with choir. Actually... I dun feel like goin' to guides meeting today... but den i woke up early feeling energetic [probably from the shock of my nightmare] so i decided to go for guides' meeting. The company was like so dead. Hopeless. So hard to ask them to open their "GOLD" mouths to sing a song. Pathetic. In the end, no choice to give them punishment. Mdm Chua most probably got really mad. Oh well, she ought to. Me, Debra Xie/Sim, Alicia, Candice, Natalia and Mei Ting escaped the punishment though. We sang, u noe... Hmmmz, i must aim to get the bronze badge. 2 more clauses in 2 different modules to do, and i'm done with! Den try to get silver badge next year... but i think by den no time liao... 

14 July 2002

I know how to write Wonbin's name in Hangul already... Soon, I'll learn how to write Korean language in Hangul... Den I'll learn the Japanese characters... I'm off to the Net to search for more learning notes... 

17 July 2002

I'm totally sick today. And I'm mad at Miss Gan!!! *sobsob* anyhow accuse me for reading my physics book during her lesson... somemore still got tummyache... Pain like hell man! No more elaboration!

29 July 2002

Almost one whole week didn't update this site. So tired lately... I feel like cutting Tian Qi's hair now u noe... U noe he actually cut my hair without my knowing?! My! What the heck was i doin?!!! I'm really damn fed-up/upset now, full-stop!

30 July 2002

FINAL DECISION. I've decided to stay in the Fitness group forever during P.E lessons. Totally gave up. No matter how hard i try, i still fail standing broad jump! I guess pamela's out of the fitness group already... sobsob... I'll have to suffer for the whole year... I think i'm goin to flop chemistry test. Why that idiotic Miss Ow always like that?! She asked us to study from chapter 5 - 9. And in the end, the test was only on chapter 9! And i studied so hard for the first few chapters, den the last one i just go thru... This is so MADDENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My a.maths class test results was sucky. Just by A LITTLE BIT, i would have passed the damm test! Another 1/2 mark u noe.... *sobsob*....

31 July 2002

Arghh... I'm definitely in pain now. No more stomachache. Now backpain, and cramped legs. I have difficultly walking up and down the stairs. One step i take, i'll "ouch!". Isn't that pathetic. Main cause of all these pain must be that idiotic standing broad jump i did yesterday. HEEEEEELP!~

Yvonne bullied me just now... She made me walk around bare-footed u noe... So psychotic rite? She took my slippers and threw it at the other end of the road. From MacDonald's to the walk-way outside MacDonald's, and from the walk-way to the grass patch, and from the grass patch to the road, and den to the playground! Anyway, did studied a little of E.Maths with her... Yvonne's the No.1 gurl fighter among us. So damn strong lor... Ha, but i managed to hit her back coz she took my slippers using another hand. I think muz go take up tae-kwon-do already... Just kidding. My dad would strongly forbid me man... 

1 August 2002

Got no better. Every move i take means PAIN. :(

7 August 2002

Social Studies paper was sick. So maddening! 20 minutes only to finish the mad paper. I think i'll flunk it for sure. As for history, i think it's a 50-50 pass/fail... Die for sure. I better work hard for the rest of papers. I wanna get back my fone!~

8 August 2002

Today's school celebration sucked. I really detest that teacher now...[I think it's better not to state her name]. Me and Pamela wouldn't have did that "humiliating" response and singing thingy bcoz of her! We would have been in our guides uniform doing something more meaningful than singing in front of the whole school! (-.-) <-my sulking face 

9 August 2002

National Day~! Happy Birthday Singapore! :) Woke up so early to go ice-skating.... haha, this time I got a treat from Emily cause she "forced" me to go... hehehe ;) I think i can skate smoothly on the ice already, but it's just that i can't go fast... :( I can't believe next week's common tests period. Wish me luck. *:)

10 August 2002

Wasted my time today. Really gonna kill Miss Ow on Monday. No chemistry remedial at all! And who informed me? Timo. Who informed Timo? Stanley. And who informed Stanley? Yvonne. So, who informed Yvonne? A girl from 301. And informed the girl from 301? That Jun Rong. And or so i heard it was Cynthia who informed Jun Rong. I know I'm a bit naggy here but i can't help it. Still damm fed-up. Wasted my money, my time, whatever! Rushed all the way to school taking the cheater-bug TIBS taxi to school. $3.50. Luckily not peak hour, if not i'll faint. That time my trip [taking TIBS taxi] to the SIR building was $9.90. [close to ten bucks!] Anyway i shouldn't complain so much coz i got some chemistry notes from Kenji. I should say his tutor damn hardworking... Print and write notes for him, gave him his old notes lah, etc. No wonder Kenji got so high for Chemistry tests. 

Hmmz. Next Monday's my worst nightmare. A/E maths. Luckily i'm having tuition tomorrow! Hmmz. I shan't spend so much time on my site, so i'll update it after the common tests.  

13 August 2002

All i can say is,.... I'll fail my chemistry test today! And u can't believe i actually rubbed boiled egg onto my bruised arm... Heard from amanda that it's effective... Sobsob... my poor winnie still limping... Yvonne simply lurve pinching people, mebbe some time i shud try pinching her... :)

17 August 2002

Today was flag day for the "Lions home for the elders". U can't imagine me and Parnella getting lost in Singapore... U noe, from Far east plaza.... we ended up in Beach road in the end! Aiyah... I took it as a form of excercisibng lor... After all, it's not that bad cause we finally stationed ourselves in some [air-conditioned..] underground pass. And "bussiness" was not that bad... A school gal donated a whole lot of coins... I suppose she sort of understand our feelings of standing and walking the whole day... Secondly, there was this teenage guy with his bunch of frenz... He donated a lot of coins too... And I had to give each one of them a sticker.... How generous, huh? There's another one: A couple donated a whole of $8.50! So after all IT'S NOT THAT BAD SELLING FLAGS AFTER ALL. But next time, if i see anyone selling flag... I WOULD DEFINITELY GO UP TO HER AND DONATE MY COINS INSTEAD OF RUNNING AWAY... HEE HEE ^-^....

19 August 2002

Hooray... My common test results were not that bad and I managed to get back my handfone... How delightful... I just dun understand my combined humanities... I always pass one and failed one. [Either I score/flunk in social studies or score/flunk in History] This time i did well for history and failed social studies... As for mid-year, I scored high for social studies and flunked History. Well, how funny isn't it?

21 August 2002

My handphone got confiscated by my mom again. Always like to use the handphone and threaten me.... I'm sick of it... So my friends, forget about SMS-ing me anymore... I won't be reading it anyway. But if i manage to get it back again, I'll inform ya...  U know, I was so fed-up till i wrote out a poem... I showed emily my poem work and she thought i was crazy. Indeed i was fuming crazy. :(

23 August 2002

I think I'm going to fail my physics test coz i din study at all last nite! U noe what i did? I put all my physics notes and books on the table... den i started reading... but in the end, I ended up sleeping on the table and when I woke up, it was already 12.00am!~ So you see... I'm dead rite? Sure die for the class test already lah... :'( I really regretted for sleeping!~

24 August 2002

Wad a day i had... Down with a flu [or shall i say a bout of sneezing attacks?...] early in the morning and at night... got "knocked" by Yvonne... Lol~ She's forever like that... Anyway, I guess I was really late... 1/2 an hour i suppose... heehee... The night market got nothing to shop wan... Anyway... It helped me in saving money... My 14 bucks was left untouched except for the 2 bucks on food... Seems like my saving plan have not gone to waste... $70 for my LOST watch... If my mom finds out, I'll be dead! I think I'm obsessed with Koyotae... So far, I've downloaded about 10 of their songs... My fave is "Endless Love". Their other dance songs are quite nice... I suppose "Endless Love" is their only ballad, but nice effort!~ My sis also got influenced by me... hahahaha... U noe something, almost 3/4 of my hard disk is being used up. Guess I'll have to be prepared for the PC to explode one day...

26 August 2002

Arghhh... I'm having a splitting headache :'( ...  i'm feeling so pissed/sad/hurt/irritated!~ What a mix of feelings! But that's what i'm really feeling now. With this kinda mix, u'll most probably can't help crying. [not sobbing.] I can't stand it anymore. Why am i being treated in this way. What have i done to deserve such treatment! This time the pinching fad's gone, and now what, "Knocking, knocking, and MORE knocking on the head... Sometimes, I CAN tolerate it, and keep it deep down in my heart. I'm really trying hard to forgive and forget, but this has really gone too far, too much. Can't take it anymore... :'(

29 August 2002

I got back my handphone AGAIN. :) hehe~ Just came back from school[meet-the-parents session] feeling tired... long time no touch mi handfone... Hehe... My results are really bad, but compared to mid year's... It's better but it's still not good... sigh. Always fail chemistry. I shuld haf taken biology in the first place. Just memorize facts and thats it. Dun need to memorize all the dumb formulas lah... about counting the mole... blah blah blah... balancing equations just simply make me SICK! And the teacher is so naggy... almost half-an-hour listening to him... What was i doin in P6 man... 192 for my PSLE aggregate... I saw the list of my classmates aggregates too... all 200-210 lah... 194-199 lah... Me? 192. WHAT THE HECK WAS I DOIN? PSLE WAS LIKE SUCH AN EASY-TO-STUDY EXAM... So damn embarrassed when that Mr Leow talked about my grades... "A bit quite disappointing ar..." Yeah, i know. Den that Mr Leow also talked about strengths and weaknesses lah... He mentioned about surfing the net too often lah... playing the computer lah... and my mom immediately said... "yeah, she's always on the computer..." Haiz. I'm glad she din ground me from using the PC. I think next year you won't see me updating my webby that often already. Luckily my mom din nagged much this time... Most probably she's speechless.

4 September 2002

Argh! I can't get the tan i want! This is so sick! I went to Emily's house today in the morning... I was hoping to get some tan from swimming u noe! We stayed uptairs for a LONG while. Emily was taking a own sweet time... den when she's ready, it poured. A while, it was so sunny, den it suddenly poured. Ridiculous isn't it? We got to wait till it's not-so-sunny to go downstairs. The sun's gone by then, u noe... Emily's weird. She insisted on stayed under the shade. Well, for all that while, she stayed under the shade in the pool, and i stayed in the "open" space of the pool. Obviously, there was no SUN at all. I swam a bit, den decided to lay back on the pool and wait for the sun. Well, it finally came for A MOMENT [a few secs, not even a minute, man!] I wished i have a swimming complex nearby... When i was staying in Hougang, the swimming complex was just one block away... and I went there often with my sisters and my mom. Haiz. So sick... stay here in upper thomson got nothing wan... except for the direct buses to Orchard area[or rather "town"] and the nice food...[*think of seafood and the famous roti prata here...]

(*-*) I'm listening to won bin's song now... So nice... Actually not his song lah... I think it's a duet with another actress. I seriously dun think it's a pop. female singer cause it's a song taken from a soundtrack... And u noe... normally, the lead actor and the lead actress sings. So can't be a pop-singer singing with won bin rite.... I wonder which drama is it....There's one part of the song[line] i really like... "an-gu-ship-po~..."... Heehee... That's how it's prounounced lah... but i dunno the real spelling so, pardon me. ;)

5 September 2002

I'm so fed up with my mom now. Now that my ah-ma [*grandmother, in case you dun understand] has said that my mom always like to scream and nag the moment she reaches home from work, my mom's flaring up now, complaining and scolding [again] us... Sick of her screeching voice. This morning, I completed her task and no appreciation from her at all! Scold, scold, scold. 

My task [this morning]: Go all the way to thomson plaza. [That's the nearest supermarket] Buy 10 apples, 10 oranges, 1 pack of grapes, 1 pack of matchboxes, wheat biscuit requested by my dad, 2 cans of Winnie's food. So many. Of course, obviously, i've got to bring my two sisters along to help me...

Well, she provided me with 15bucks but in the end its not enuff. Anyway, I din really go to NTUC immediately, my sisters were shopping for some gifts, so i was their "so-called" advisor. I bought 2 headbands[bandage type, u noe]... They were really nice... I bought purple and pink... I thought of buying blue... but it's so plain. So forget it lor...

The choosing of apples and oranges was tough. Hope I din do a bad job. Heehee. What was I "heehee"-ing about?! Hrmph! She made me looked like one of those aunties/housewifes pushing the trolley while my sisters ran about! What a mistake i made to bring them along! 

Well, forget it. Hope my mom would cut down on her screaming and nagging. Tommorrow I'll go pamper myself by shopping~... Most probably window-shopping with emily~... I can never save up money! My plan is always being thwarted...  Huh? 12.26 am now. I go sleep now... nitez~*

7 September 2002

2 more days till school reopens: which means.... A week of horrible class tests... (*.*)Full-stop!~

15 September 2002

Boring afternoon.~ So sleepy throughout tuition... I just made a quiz, I suppose it's gonna expire after 30days from now...

16 October 2002

Woah, almost a month! Now I have to return Miss Lye's calculator already... Oh yeah, haven't talked about how i lost my calculator... What a long story... I guess I was damn emotional before exams too... Call it pre-exam stress. Calculator lost, selfish and self-centred person pissed me off again and again. I guessed my toleration sort of expired that day... I dunno why on earth I cried so much but i was really sick and tired of it. 3 whole years. 3 whole years of toleration. 3 whole years of facing insults. 3 whole years of talking behind my back. 3 whole years of being mean and selfish to me. I don't feel like going on... Today should be a happy day for me coz exams are FINALLY over!~

23 October 2002

OMG~... I'm really dead... Must I really drop pure science?... I really really really tried my best... So what's the main problem with me?... I'm going find the answer no matter what. I guess my fate will be decided on this Saturday... 

24 October 2002

Feeling damn hurt now. I really wanna curl up and cry. Why must you do this to me? Have I done anything wrong? I really dun understand. I really really treasure you as a friend. But now I'm doubting myself... Why?      ('-' ;)

25 October 2002

I'm so happy today... Bought so many won bin stuff... I bought two key-chains... Has won bin's picture on it you noe... I bought a big poster of him too... Haiz but I don't know where to paste it. The crazy government is tearing down my attic. Argh. Guess I'll paste it downstairs in the bedroom... All my BSB posters all wasted. I just realised Aaron Carter's so handsome recently. So damn mature looking. He kinda looks like Nick nowadays you noe... I'm so happy I bought so much stuff today... I bought "My Sassy Girl" VCD too... Watched it over and over again... So funny man... 

Last week "Happy Together" ended... Well when I saw the korean drama trailer, "Zhen Shi" in chinese for the next week[today]... I thought it was boring... cause got no familiar faces maybe one... the lead actress of Winter Sonata... I suddenly felt the itch just now... so I switched on the TV... Well, they have dual sound function you noe! So I decided to watch lor... 

The plot's interesting anyway... About this poor gal and rich gal studying in high school taking their entrance exams to get into the U... One stayed in the cellar of the house, and the other's family owns the house...  The poor gal's very capable in studies while the rich gal is lazy. The poor gal always got first in standard in the whole school. The rich gal's so despicable... She kept forcing the poor gal to let her copy her answers during mock exams... In the end, something cropped up in the poor girl's family and she had to take the entrance exam for the rich girl and she herself had to retake her exams the next year. 

Well, You'll never fail to spot handsome actors in Korean dramas... I don't know what's his name... He's not bad actually... But I found him familiar cause he acted in "beautiful days" alongside with Lee Byun Hun and another female actress... I'm waiting for the next episode next week...

29 October 2002

I know what's that korean actor's name already... Ryu Shi Won... Hahaha... Won~ Click here to get the drama's synopsis. Know what? I watched malaysia channel yesterday... They also airing Korean dramas... "Purity" starring Ryu Shi Won... The drama sets on a radio/tv station... The malaysian channel, TV3... have no dual sound function... and den got all the malay subtitles and the actors "speaking" in chinese... HOW UNNATURAL!~ Previouly they aired "Autumn in My Heart"... Nice huh? But I could only hear them "speaking" in chinese... No fun... Well, at least got won bin...  

31 October 2002

Save me. I don't know what is going on. I feel like dying. Confused state of mind. Going crazy too... 

1 November 2002

You know what? I'm about to take up taekwondo... I told yvonne that my mom allow me to take up the sport... Actually, I asked my mom long ago when we passed by Thomson CC in bus 163... I saw them practising so i remembered during "b4-exams" period yvonne asked me whether want to take up taekwondo or not... I remembered she was bullying me full-time... Den suddenly asked me want to join or not... Weird huh... Anyway, in the end... I did some deep thinking so I decided not to take up... Cause my mom wants me to make sure that it wun affect my studies next year... And besides... Mebbe Taekwondo is not my type... Like very violent and tuff... Dunno what has gotten into my brain the other day... I actually asked my mom whether I could join.... I couldn't believe she allowed either... Luckily I didn't tell my dad... If i did so... He'll nag like an "auntie"... Say I break my bones la, go hospital la, cry la, injured la or whatsoever... HE"LL ALWAYS HAVE REASONS. That time I told him I was going to "ice-skate" with my friends... You know what he said? "No, no, no.. I don't allow you to go! Later you break your bones and end up in hospital crying..." He's so idiotic rite... Well, I managed to psycho my mom... So she allowed lor... 

5 November 2002

I burnt my hand... Awww... I guess Darlie toothpaste did help a bit.... I cooked kimchi ramen [instant kind..] for my two sis u noe.... But all I get is a burn on my hand... I wonder where to get kimchi... I went vegetarian todae... I cooked myself a whole can of vege. soup... I'm damm full now... 

I've thought about my three wishes that Mr Gopal asked us to come up with... Firstly, I wish he'll allow tape recorders in school... Everytime Miss Ou talk so fast... Can't catch up with her writing notes.... Secondly, I wish he'll change our e.maths teacher.... Mr Siva is a good P.E. teacher... But I still think Mrs Choong should teach us... Thirdly, I WANT TO CHANGE MY SEATING ARRANGEMENT!!!!!!!! I can't stand sitting at the back! It's so damn torturous! I'm like totally sitting at the back of the class! I mean, I'm not that tall, I'm so average SHORT... 156... arrgggghhh... This ain't fair! My friends who are all taller than me, sit in front,... and me? sit right at the back of the class. And mind you, I don't have perfect eyesight since i'm wearing specs! ARGHHH!!!! Tell ya, I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE! Well, since Mr Gopal's granting us wishes... At least I have all my wishes prepared. 

My sister is actually going to Hong Kong next week! This ain't fair... She can go overseas... Oh well, actually I don't intend to go overseas this year... But I REALLY REALLY wanna go Korea... I've made up my mind anyway... I'm going to Korea next year after the BIG 'O's no matter what... I've "pyscho-ed" my dad about going to Korea liao... He said he also wanna go Korea... Yay, that means next year got hope... Hmm, once i reach Korea, I'll shop like crazy than u'll ever imagine... It'll be better if i win a free expense shopping trip to Korea... That'll be so great...

8 November 2002

Guess what time I reached home just now... about 10.45pm u noe... My mom scolded me cause my ah-ma kept asking my mom about my whereabouts... I only informed my mom and dad about the lesson... Guess my mom got very irritated by my ah-ma just now... I don't think i can take it... Guess i'll take it after next year's 'O' levels... Right now i'm already struggling with Amaths and Chemistry... Still take up wad courses! Some more I'm a bit "blurred" just now... And so damn embarrassing... all thanks to yvonne lor... Actually i thought it's ok if i join cause she said she just "joined" tkd only... But now i know she lied to me!~ So sick lor... So damn embarrassing... I was left alone you noe... I was taught seperately u noe... Totally myself only. I thought the boy almost fainted after teaching me... U noe how scared i was...  Well, anyway, it was also quite interesting... But I kept forgetting the command... I only remember "chun bi", "sho", "cha-lute", and the other one is bowing but I can't remember the word for it... I also learnt "forward stance" and the "zero thrust/trust"... I'm not sure about the spelling... so pardon me... I must ask yvonne for more to refresh my memory... I dunno what level she's at... but i noe she had the same belt colour as the boy who taught me... I think her level is quite high, high enuff to teach somebody... Think I better go to sleep now... It's getting late... 12.30a.m....

11 November 2002

I got slapped for nothing! Period!

3 December 2002

I can't wait for christmas... Oh no i haven't buy books yet... I lost my specs for nuthin AGAIN. I don't even know how it went missing... Just gone liddat. Waste 150 bucks again. Pamela is so unreasonable sometimes... Money money money. I'm fed up with money so stop talking to me about it!

09/02/04

Basically i'm waiting for my 'O' levels results now. You can say that I'm actually rotting at home. But I did work in Motorola for 2 weeks. I guess it's quite an amazing feat huh. I got about 650bucks like that... Anyway I spent it all on my handphone and language course. I didn't even have a bit left to spend it on shopping. Argh. Okay let's talk about my 'O' levels period. It was gruesome and all that but my worst moment was the history paper. I wished i didn't have tummyache at that time. I thought i could do better for that history paper. I mean, who can even concentrate doing the paper when there's this tummyache on her mind! I've got the facts but my handwriting was so darn big and i know i wrote lesser than ever for my essay. Seriously I hate to talk about it now but the results are coming out soon and i can't stop thinking about it!

Okay so let's talk about prom night. Ok change it to graduation night. I mean, look, prom night is what students in the US really enjoy and they really party hard. So well, our graduation night was not even near to prom night at all. Okay except the fact that we were all in formal wear. Well actually they're a few ones who wasn't in formal wear. I guess they definitely felt weird that night. Everyone looked in their best that night but not me. I realise that only when my mom told me that my eyeliner went off the moment she looked at the grauation night shots. Anyway it's over so heck it. Didn't i tell ya lots of stuff happened during my 2-year hiatus? Actually there's more but i don't wanna elaborate further. If i happen to get to that topic then i'll just type everything down. I kinda like this online journal because i can never keep a diary. It's like i'll write something today, and the next day i don't feel like writing. I love using the computer so this online journal is most suitable for me.

10/02/2004

I just changed my web host to tripod yesterday so i'm still in the middle of adding more new stuff to this webby. I'm probably gonna make a neopets section 'cause i had a sudden obsession with it after my 'o' levels. Weird right? It's like, I didn't play it for about 2 years then i'm back to playing it again. Haiz, I've gotta give my sis tuition later so i won't spend much time on this 'cause I haven't play neopets today yet!

12/02/2004

This online journal thingy is kinda weird right... the latest entries are all at the bottom. So i'm gonna check out tripod's blog tool today... Hope I can get it to work correctly... Today Timo sent me a movie file of class 402... It's kinda cool but some images are blur... I'm gonna try to make a flash file that's based on 402 photos to put at the enter page of this site but i think it's gonna take quite some time. So wish me luck!

17/02/2004

I've decided to use livejournal instead of tripod's blog tool. They said i can embed the journal into my site so i'm going give it a try. About less than 2 weeks and we "o" level students are gonna receive our results. I'm so scared. I'm not even a least bit excited. I have this feeling my eyesight degree is getting higher and higher everyday. I switch on the computer everyday and use it like 3-4 hours. Am i like literally going blind soon?

I had my korean class yesterday. And we learnt the different past tenses yesterday. It seemed difficult, and i'm gonna take quite some time to get it i guess. I'm gonna search for a english-korean dictionary soon! And that means i have to empty my pocket again. Sigh. I kinda miss my motorola job now. I heard from pam that they're more relaxed now! They can slack and get that oh-so-wonderful pay... I'm so darn envious!

20 April 2004

I've decided to dump that blog fusion thingy. And that live journal thingy. I prefer typing it here. Just simple DIY. I'm so tired today. Today, sales was really bad, i mean, really bad to the core! Oh i saw Joey Swee (Xu Qi that mediacorp actress) today. Omg, she's so pretty in real life. And she was wearing a pink sporty cardigan! Pink!!! Her top is really nice, wonder where she got it from... Hm. She looked around the shop and her male friend bought a packet of socks. Seriously, I think a lot of mediacorp artistes walk around in thomson plaza quite frequently... I've seen a few of them walking past hangten already... Speaking of celebrity sightings, I've seen Fann Wong drove past my house before! I was bidding my relatives goodbye the other time and she drove past in her sports car! She's damn rich you know. 

Something unfortunate happened in Nicoll Highway today. I was listening to Perfect Ten in the shop today and they were reporting the breaking news. I'm alone in the whole shop today, so i was pretty bored and my ears are all to the radio... My heart really goes out to all SCDF workers and the casualties found and unfound. Hope everything is done by tomorrow. God bless everyone working hard at the Nicoll Highway scene now.

Today a guy from North Point came for relief. Oh my. He was the guy that my senior has always mentioned about. My senior always mentioned about him whenever that guy and I have something in common. It's like when my senior saw my v200, and he goes like, "Oh jing hao also has that phone you know", and when i  placed my wallet anywhere and then he goes like, "Oh jing hao also like to place  his wallet anywhere" and when he knew i have my dog as my phone wallpaper, he went like, "oh jing hao also has his cat as his wallpaper you know". And he also added that jing hao is as blur as me. Oh well.  And he always said god should let me and jing hao meet each other 'cause we have so many things in common. Hmm. I didn't quite believe all that until i met him today. And today i really met him and i should say we really do have many things in common. It's like, i found out that we both have the same COP for O levels and he's a scout while i'm a guide! Wow never in my life have i met someone that has so many things in common with me! Haha, probably he's the male replica of me! :)

25 August 2004

What's wrong with me today? I don't even feel like studying for tomorrow's Problem Solving UT. I don't know what grade to expect but, my grades have been falling. WHY??? ack. I got an A for my first UT of that module, then got a B for the second one, and C+ for the third one. Just what is the heck is wrong with me! sigh. Someone please slap me on my head and wake me up! I. Am. Going. Mad. Well, just leave me alone to die. X_X

22 Aug 2004

Made a lot of changes to my webby today, to me at least. I haven't been changing the layout lately. I'm currently reading up of CSS and html, hopefully, by next year i'll have a totally different layout by then. :) I feel extremely broke. I'm really anticipating for the tuition fees! I'll be able to get it by the fourth lesson! Yay! Gimmie more assignments please. I'm broke. Gimmie the cash! I need to shop. It's an inner desire in me. I wasn't really into shopping in the past because i didn't have my atm card. After working during the holidays, got the atm card, and voila, i started using it like there's no tomorrow.

 21 Aug 2004

Nothing significant happened today. Anyway, i took this quiz, and look at the results! I disagree with some of the statements.

ブラウン ヒツジ
YOU ARE ブラウン ヒツジ!

You are Brown Sheep, who is modest and have a gentle atmosphere.
You tend to express self confidence and calmness.
[x] i don't have self confidence at all. I express calmness though.
You also have guts not to give up on things so easily.
You are not shy towards men too.
[x] says who? i am extremely shy towards the opposite gender.
You like to take care of the others, and can not turn down favors.
You are rather emotional, and optimistic.
[x] I am not optimistic at all, although i have to agree that i'm emotional. VERY, not RATHER.
This leads you in making hasty decisions and overly optimistic outlook.
You tend to take on things without thinking about your capability, and suffer with burden afterwards.
You should think twice before taking on favors.
When you can't cope with the work you took on, it is you that people regard as a person who lacks perspective.
You have your own sense of values.
You try to seek values in other people, and will start a relationship on trust.
But you tend to be stubborn, and have great many likes and dislikes.
You also hate being instructed, and decisions made by other people.
You have observing eyes towards the others, and your natural sense of instinct and decisions are well developed.
[x] I don't make wise decisions. I'm indecisive. I suck at making decisions.
You are also a good negotiator.
[x] Nah. I don't think so.
You are kind to those who work under you, and will not forget to show consideration and generosity.
But you can be hard and difficult to those above you.
They will regard you as being a rebellious person.
You are a proud person, and do not like to lose.
Nevertheless, you are very sociable and intelligent.
[x] I am definitely not both. Not sociable, not intelligent. I'm stupid. That's why i'm in RP now.
You will not end up being an ordinary housewife.
You are a bold and passionate person.
[x] I'm definitely not bold. Told you i have zilch self confidence.

19 Aug 2004

Gawd... I can't sleep last night! I shall dedicate this whole post to yong hun!! He told me there's this korean website still selling the old korean soccer jersey and know what, it's actually so much cheaper than i'd expected. I am so excited! Wanted to get the jersey a long time ago, but didn't know where to get it! And yeah, it's imported from korea herself! The original, yeah!~ I'm going gaga soon... Too psyched up already... Look, yong hun, look what you've done to me! So make sure you better get something you want from the site okay? Or why don't you just get the white one you'd thought of buying... and help me get mine too!~ :) I will be so eternally grateful to you and your dad, lol. I wished i have a credit card, and go online shopping! 

18 Aug 2004

Yesterday he messaged me to ask if i actually mind him asking me something. Luckily i was preoccupied with today's VB.Net UT. Oh yeah, Jason marked our UTs already, and i got like a 15/26? Mediocre pass. Sigh, all that for studying overnight. Slept during Benny Koh's class just now. Closed my laptop and laid my head on the table. No matter how much i sleep, i always feel sleepy. I slept on the bus ride home and it was the worst ever. Banged my head unknowingly against the window, my right ear got affected too, it turned red because i was leaning my head on the right side. It's 12.39PM now. Not sleeping yet, so well, sleep in Ranga's class tomorrow.

16 Aug 2004

Back from Genting with my pals yesterday. The trip was AWESOME! It was kinda a 2days 1 night thingy but it's actually a 3days 2 nights thingy. First night: on the bus. Second night: in the hotel.  It was freezing cold there, didn't really expect it until my mom called me when i was on my way to meet them at lavender on friday. She was like, "Did you bring sweater there" and i was like "no, i don't think it'll be that COLD there". It was a long bus trip, i had a hard time sleeping comfortably, neck ached like HELL. Anyway, I slept, and I slept and slept throughout the bus trip though. The moment we reached Genting, I felt freezing cold! Felt my heart shivering (or was it a freezing feeling?), felt my upper and lower sets of teeth chomping each other, - it was a cool experience though. Never felt that cold in my entire life before. Sigh, didn't get to try all the rides but overall it was fun! I screamed like nobody's business, i mean, you have to let it ALL out if you feel uneasy right?

We ate pizza for our dinner  in our hotel room and started to listen to ghostly encounters and stories, jokes, and an attempt to play truth or dare. If i were to list out every single thing we did, the post will never end. Anyway, i think i slept like a pig because everyone complained about being disturbed by noises but i wasn't really affected! Michelle said she got disturbed by her mom's constant knocking on the door and Ray's snoring. Marcus said he got disturbed by Ray's snoring and Nora's dream talking of "ooh lala" -  I guess Marcus didnt get a good sleep after all. Nora said she got disturbed by some sounds coming from our bags, (that was my handphone alarm @ 6.25am). Ken said he got disturbed by Ray's snoring too. You see, almost everyone heard something or got affected, but i'm not. I'm kinda glad though - I guess i was the only one who got the nicest sleep.

I want to go back to Genting again! I want the pink converse shoes! regretted not buying it. Arghs. Oh well, i did buy a jeans tube dress from the shopping malls they have there in Genting. I actually bought a dress!!! The shoes there in Genting suck, lousy designs and all... I seriously want to go on a major shopping spree in Malaysia. Mommy, bring me to KL! I should suggest a shopping trip in Malaysia. However, I would like to add a point: I totally detest the toilets in Malaysia. I just love the shopping experience in Malaysia but not its environment.

13 Aug 2004

I am extremely pissed in class today. What the shit, Mr Lee decided to reshuffle all the teams and i'm stranded with 4 new members. Everything went fine when we switched to our "new" teams just 4 weeks ago? Got like 'A's ever since that group change. Now he changed the teams again, stuck with this idiotic girl who acts like she doing something but she is not. She's a slacker! Asked her to help me edit the interviews, and she gave me raw ones, like direct from her shorthand, all the "noe, den" slang. WHAT! Expect me to put that in the powerpoint slides? I was like, busy editing the first 3 ones and adding extra information to the slides, all she did was to copy her stupid "noe, den" shorthand into microsoft word and send it to me. She didn't even bother to put the questions above the responses, everything looked so disorganised like an english composition graded with a F9. She expects me to do everything so that she can continue her chat with her bunch of indian guy friends. What's the only thing she contributed? Interviewing her guy friends, and ya know what, their responses are so short and they don't make sense at all! I even had to question her on that. Argh. I. Want. To. Change. Teams. !!!! Can't stand her!

Anyway, got a part-time job is a tutor through wendy's tuition agent. And I started, like immediately, just now, straight after school. The student's house is at like, HOUGANG! Felt lost when the agent told me the address. Oh yeah, HUGE THANKS to shao xia who kinda "brought" me there 'cause he's kinda familiar with the place. He stays around there, I am so eternally grateful to him. The block is like hidden behind heartland mall and the MRT station, thankfully,  (again!) he brought me around the place!

Oooh, the student's family consists of a yorkshire terrier too. Aww so cute! I'm teaching primary 2 kids. Yesh you got it right. Kinda cute. :) Oh yeah, maths by the way. I know what you think, but hey! i got a b3 for emaths for O's ya know. Oh yeah, the agent called me again after the tuition and you know what she asked? "Hey I got a Chinese tutoring assignment, want it?" ME? Teach Chinese Langauge? Oh yea, and it's primary 1 and 2 chinese. Ask me to teach chinese??? I'll probably be embarrassing myself in front of the primary one and 2 kids. But then again, it sounds easy. Lol... No no, i'm not giving second thoughts! :)

10 Aug 2004

Don't think I will update much on the photo pages yet... I need to reformat my computer first... Hmm I wonder if there's any kind of blog script for me to use... You see, I do DIY blog, so i don't have the time stated there and all that... Yeay, I'm back to my web design mood now that my microsoft frontpage is not screwed up anymore! Today's UT sucks. I think I'm gonna get a C, sigh... Why are my grades falling? Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I'm depressed.

8 August 2004

I had a great time shopping today! Spent like loads today man. Oh yea, i went to City Harvest Church with emily earlier on then. Service was awesome! Rev Kong Hee is such a great speaker (okay pastor i meant.)! He speaks really well and made the whole service felt lively! That was the most fun church service I've ever been to! Thanks emily, for pulling me there! Anyway, went to town with emily for some major shopping. First i got the windstruck VCD! Whee! It's finally out! Altho' I've watched it but i felt like watching it again. Myung Woo the blur block, keke! Got a pink top from Zara, it's so cool i swear! Don't doubt my taste, lol... And finally, cute pink pointy shoes from Charles and Keith! Man, my fave!~ Their designs are the coolest! Well that's about it, don't wanna blog much, i'm pretty tired today.

17 July 2004

Pam came to my house @ about 3 and she wanted to upload her photos from her bro's v200. We had a file exchange session, chatted, and listening to chinese songs that she recommended. Can't believe i actually allowed my ears to listen to such genre. I thought i listen to such genre in sec 1 when pam got me crazy over nicholas tse. And i'm still wondering what made me like Nicholas Tse then. We met Rui later on @ the roti prata shop down the lane... Rui was talking about this girl who got herself into semi-coma after getting into a hit-and-run by a motorbike. Heard she lost one of her arm and she looks totally bloated. Life is so unpredictable. Heard she was a very talented girl, good in studies and all that... Now after the accident, the doctors can't even save her. Was told that she had only a few days to live. Right now, even i don't even know her, i really pray that a miracle will happen for her and her family.

Later on, we went to town and headed to topshop for my skirt, but it's GONE! Argh! Nothing's there when you need it. Then headed to Zara and found out it has a 70% huge sale! The bad part is, just when we were looking around, Rui found out that it's 7! And the concert STARTS @ 7. Rushed to VCH in a cab and oOh... Pam sneaked in because Emily wasn't there to give her to tix she promised to!

Konzert IX: It was a okay performance i guess. But still i have to applaud the Sembawang Wind Orchestra for putting up with such "fannatic crowd" - acting like crazy 5566 fans @ concert. However, please do not associate me with them. I was listening quietly, OKAY I LIED! I was listening most of the time but once in a while i whispered to pam...

After the concert, we waited for Matthew. And yeah, he still teases me about my height. Bleh. I want to grow taller! I think he got psyched by me or what but... he's into Korean music! Korean OST music scores, to be precise. Well i can easily send him some music scores from my pc. I know, i don't play piano but i still download music scores of OST when i come across them because... I hope to hear someone play it! It's cool to hear music of OST played on piano live ya know. Saw Justin and cleared my doubt about seeing him in school. He's in republic! I told him that think i saw him once or twice in school, but i don't know whether it's him or not... And Matt had to cut in and say, "She's like that one, you have to understand." -commenting on my blurness and good vision again.

Went to eat crepes and took photos and stuff, joke & complain about jc and poly life... We got ourselves out of the big group, so it's only me, rui, pam, matthew and justin @ the table. I was complaining about Basic Science full time to Justin! And he told me he always play cheat in quiz by using thumbdrives and msn!

Took 167 home with Matthew and the rest of them took MRT from City Hall. Oh yeah, it was the first time i brought a person around singapore because i'm not that street wise ya know. But i brought Matthew around 'cause he'd no idea how to get to the 167 bus stop... Haha feel so proud. I knew the way around city hall area because i went there for my korean classes in january! Anyway what a long entry and it's a whole lotta crap.

12 July 2004

Can't stop thinking about taegukgi in school today. Anyway, I got to meet Sok Han and her 2 other friends. They're so nice. They're working adults now and they like won bin! Ha, but sok han said she wouldn't go all the way to receive won bin at the airport if he comes. Anyway, I got to meet Flavia from Won Bin SG forum too. She looks so sweet... and i thought she was around my age... but she's a university student ya know! When i asked about her age, she told me she watched Bae Yong Jun's "Untold Scandal"... lol~ she saw Bae Yong Jun live here in Singapore @ the premiere of that movie too... We talked on lotsa stuff... Oh yeah, she told me she toured Korea Free &Easy with her pals 2 years ago. That's when she's 19? Oh my, I'm going to do the same too man. Pull my friends along to tour korea ourselves!

Taegukgi is such a tearjerker man. I cried buckets @ some of the scenes, one was when Jin Suk was crying "Om-ma..." when he was being drafted to army, one was when Young Shin got killed and Jin Tae looked upon, the other was when the 2 brothers finally get to see each other after being seperated and Jin Tae told baby Jin Suk to move on without him, then Jin Tae stayed behind and fought bravely at the Reds... (are they the reds? Anyway.) The whole scene is so sad...

Shared cab with flavia back home...

11 July 2004

Woke up early and went for some social entrepreneurship talk all because Mr Jason Chuang called me up last night to remind me. I would have totally forgot about it if he had not called. Anyway, he told me to meet at 8.50am and i asked "meet in school right?" then he said "yeah, meet you at the lobby". You know what, i bet he wasn't listening when i asked him that question. Communication, ya know. So I went to sch at about 8.40-8.50am and i even told michelle to meet in school! Argh. I felt kinda guilty ya know. And Nora woke up late, so she didn't bother to go in the end anyway...

I tell ya, i slept at one point of the talk because i was just too tired to listen... And I felt so intimidated by the atmosphere there, most of them there are grown adults, university students, etc. In fact I don't think i look like a poly student ya know. I look more like a secondary schoolgirl.

After the talk, michelle and i had some retail therapy!~ It was a good one though. I got myself a baby pink and blue OP sling bag and a baby pink OP polo shirt! Yeay~ Oh yeah and i got my refund back and a complimentary taegukgi movie pass. The staff asked me whether I was interested in the movie poster 'cause they're gonna print it if the amount is enough... But then i still have to pay since the gala thingy is not on anymore and they even refunded us the 28bucks so well, it's okay with me anyway. Oh my... I'm gonna have a huge taegukgi poster with won bin oppa's face on it! I can't wait to watch taegukgi tomorrow!~ ^-^

10 July 2004

Sigh* Won Bin is not coming to town anymore, and apparently, encore films has decided to screen the movie for free for won bin fans who had bought the gala premeire tickets thinking that Won Bin will appear. It's a kinda an appreciation of our support for Won Bin oppa. Well, it's kinda disappointing to learn that Won Bin will not be coming anymore... Anyway, i'll be watching the film with other Won Bin fans i've met online, Sokhan, Charmaine, (Woon) Weiling and others... Can't wait to meet fellow won bin fans... ^-^

Sheesh, i haven't done my RJ yet. Shucks. I'm slacking day by day. Yesterday we had a meeting with my fave fac. Mr Jason Chuang! He brought us to the staff lounge and the guys started playing... (i don't know what they call that, but it's something like pool, but you need to use fingers) Hm. Jason asked if we got used to PBL and honestly, i said "no". I can't possibly lie right? After all that nonsense i've got from ranga! "You seemed to be distracted from the actual work, bla bla... more inclined to jokes and giggling..." Can't stand her. Fine I will not laugh, giggle nor smile. I'll pull a LONG face. And that's not the only reason i hate PBL. I just don't get VB.net and Basic Science using PBL method to learn. Stupid method to teach those 2 subjects. Man, i envy my friends in Ngee Ann. They get to learn foreign languages, go to lectures (you must think i'm crazy) but i'm kinda a "book" person. I love notes, i'll die without them. Now, i don't even have notes, even if i have them, they'll be in powerpoint slides. Argh. I prefer hard copies! I want textbooks! I wanna fly to Ngee Ann and join my friends man. Argh. Well I guess i'm too late to complain, but still, you know i love whining and complaining. It's so me. I remember the days when i used to complain and whine to Emily, Pamela, Si Rui, Yvonne, Matthew, Yuk Wai and even Yong Hun. In fact, i argue and complain to him most of the time when i talk to him online. Oh yeah and he's my official Korean Language tutor! Lol. Still remembered the days when Yvonne, Matthew and Yuk Wai kept calling me "blur" and even said i "created" the new disease called "SMS" -Short Memory Syndrome. Ya know, that time they had SARS and all that so came "SMS". Haha, it was fun and all that, and i've to admit that i'm kinda blur and slow sometimes. I remembered there's one time Matt and Vonne told me a joke, and i just didn't get it. They said it was meant to be funny but i still i didn't get it. And I think Clement and Co. once mentioned about the same joke before. Anyway, schooldays are still meant to be reminsiced. (^-^)

Know what, just saw these two pretty sleeveless tees advertised in 8days and i-weekly! Man, I swear i'm going to get them tomorrow at orchard. The pricing is kinda wrong, but i'm going to get since i've got my eyes on them. It's $29.90. Since i'm getting two, it's gonna cost me about 60bucks. I'm not being spendthrift, but it's just some indulgence that i need ya know. No more canteen food nor eating out for me next week!~

1 July 2004

Won Bin is coming in 11 days! That is all i'm going to say 'cause i've been kinda lazy and loads of stuff are happening in school and at home.

10 June 2004

What a day i had today. Went to watch Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkaban( ... Argh what a long title) with pam, yuk wai and alex. Firstly, I'm so~~ happy i got the somang colour lotion with jae won's face on the package! And can you believe it, it's actually sold here in singapore? Awww... so rare right? Okay the movie was really scary and funny at the same time too!~ That malfoy guy is getting so handsome... Like aaron carter... Actually potter isn't that handsome and i just don't get the fuss. Hmm. Probably his specs make him look like auntie-killer Bae Yong Jun...

After the movie, we had such a HARD time finding a place to eat. Okay we had such a hard time deciding where to eat. Guys are REALLY indecisive. They can't even decide what to eat. Anyway i finally ended the aimless walking and walked into burger king... Oh well altho' i don't really like the stuff at BK... Okay then the guys said they wanted to play pool. And I know nuts about playing pool. Well it's fine with me but isn't pool for sleazy people? And moreover we played at about 8pm plus and doesn't that makes us even sleazy? Okay great. People are going to think i'm a nerd, so i better change my statement, "Most sleazy people play pool at night". Hmm. I'd probably prefer playing pool in the afternoon. Maybe it's just a psychological thing in me. blehz.

Reached home about 10? All because of that crazy ride on the taxi back home. Shared the taxi with pam and thank goodness she shared the taxi with me. Ya know why? That driver's so NOT streetwise, and worst of all he drives weird and have cars honking at him. I totally felt my life and pam's were at stake.  I was like, "Oh shit, we might get into an aciddent anytime". Seriously all my life i've never met such a driver. Oh well i'll just give him a break, it's probably his first day at work and he never drive around singapore before.

7 June 2004

Cool. It's the start of my holidays! Well I finally called Hangten up and bugged them about my 3 cds which were stuck in the dumb hi fi. They better call me soon when they get the three cds out 'cause one of the cds is my beloved BSB album! Argh.

I'm going to sneak into the NUS library with emily on this wednesday so wish us luck and that we don't get caught. Isn't that like, trespassing? Haha, we are always doing all the weird things you can ever think of. We're the perfect team! Haha, still remembered the canoeing incident when the two of us were screwing up everything, bumping into kellongs and smelling gas and all that. Well the great singapore sale is here and that means major shopping indulgence! Oh man, i can use my salary from hangten and spend it all on clothes and accessories!

6 June 2004

My cousin told me he's gotten into the second round of the auditions! Great for him. But you know, what? - I highly doubt so.

3 June 2004

Okay, today James messaged me some funny text. He's such a nice and friendly guy. School is still FINE today. No one in my poly reads this cause i don't give them my url... Only my sec sch mates read this (okay not all really). If my poly mates ever do, i'll DROP DEAD. It's because i'm very frank here than anyone who has a blog and people in their poly read them. Anyway, today I received a mail from my visual basic.net facilitator. He's so sweet and humorous. Read the following (from the mail he sent):

Dear students,

I decided to send all of you this email with regards to some recent feedback I got from students’ reflection journals.

I have the following comments for all of you:

 

A: Help Clinic:

I cannot make the Saturday help clinic compulsory because students should be given a choice.

The PBL philosophy requires students to decide what is best for them.

Hence, Let us learn how to take responsibility on own learning and think of ways to save ourselves.

After all, the students who are interested to learn will turn up for it.

There is no reason why I should force students who are not to come.

In addition, some of you may be busy with your own stuffs, such as boyfriend and girlfriend.

Please remember that life is so much more than Visual Basic. Net.

 

However, I do encourage all of you to go for this Saturday session.

Bring along your boyfriend and girlfriend if you like.

Make it an interesting and truly memorable day for both of you.

The details are available in the PowerPoint slides in the course work bin.

I will be there for a while as I have a meeting in NUS later during the day.

Hence, I will not be a light bulb.

 

B: Class Discussion:

Once the PBL methodology is in full mode, I will let you all to run the class on your own.

I will probably present the final answer and become more of an observer.

You find that my involvement in the class will get less and less over time.

In other words, I will give fewer hints and talk less over time.

However, this may vary according to the difficulty of the problem.

I will still give more help as when necessary if the problem is difficult.

I am fine with the fact that the class may end up chaotic like a zoo.

By the way, I like to see confused monkeys in the zoo.

Just kidding.

 

C: Class Participation:

Perhaps I have told you all in class before, there are no stupid questions in my class.

This is because different students progress differently. Do not be shy not to voice out your opinions.

In fact, if you are not sure of what is going in class, you should ask more questions.

 

In addition, I do not fault students for making wrong answers because I believe in free speech.

I made many mistakes and talking rubbish while I was in NUS.

In the end, I did so much better than a lot of people.

That’s why I am eligible to facilitate the class. J

 

This is a creative environment hence I will like all of you to voice your opinions.

Of course, please do exercise some form of self-censorship.

On the other hand, please do not abuse this system.

Say only things you think are valid.

Ask only things you think are fair.

You all are old enough to know what should be done and what should not be done.

 

I do not believe that asking questions to each team is sabotaging.

In fact, you should be glad that you are helping the presenting team to understand better.

 

Based on the feedback I get, I will modify the point system for class after the holidays.

I will award addition points to students who ask good questions or give useful comments.

 

If you are a quiet and shy person and you feel that you are at a disadvantage. Yes indeed you are.

It is time for you to overcome your difficulties and learn how to adapt to a new environment.

Think about it, you will have to be at a disadvantage for the next 3 years.

Don’t you want to do something about it?

 

C: Remedial:

I am considering the remedial thing seriously. I could only say that this is not easy as the school do not encourage such activities.

I talked to my colleagues about it and they say that this is against the PBL methodology.

At the minimum, I will supply the class with my own notes that would be useful for the 1st understanding test.

However, do not think that there will always be spoon-feeding all the time.

You have all long ago passed your infant stage and no long babies.

I do not have to give you all milk bottles.

 

D: Submission

Please submit your work on time. Please do your reflection journal and evaluation for those who have not.

Please remember that you are responsible with your work.

There students who are responsible enough to send me an email if they are unable to submit their work on time.

I still give them credit because there is being responsible.

However, do not abuse my kindness.

 

E: Grading

For those who felt that you deserve a better grade, please come and see me personally.

Peer evaluation is very important because it is your avenue to tell me which team member is not putting in his/her fair share of work.

Alternatively, you could send me an email personally.

I have only a pair of eyes to see 25 students.

It is not possible for me to see all of your contribution.

I am not god.

You all know right?

 

Please send me your comments if you have any.

This will not affect your grading.

Do not wait, voice out now.

For those who feel that they are sinking, you still have time to save yourself.

Do not wait anymore.

Anything else you want me to address?

Let us try to come out something best for all of you after the holidays.

 

It is not easy to survive well in Republic Polytechnic.

However, if you do survive, I believe you will do well in life.

I would very much share with you in my next mass mailing after getting more feedback from the survey.

It is not spam okay?

 

By the way, I will not release this week grades until 3 weeks later because of the 5th day students.

Drop me an email if you want to know your grades and comments in advance.

I shall finish my marking by end of next week.

Yes, I know I am slow!

 

Warm regards,

Jason Chuang Keng Wei

Academic Staff

Centre for Innovation and Enterprise (CIE)

Republic Polytechnic

Aw, isn't he so sweet as a facilitator? He is definitely my fave facilitator in school.

2 June 2004

Today's Vesak Day and i woke up at 10am plus! My mom had to wake me up for no apparent reason. Hmph. I wanted to sleep until noon like that 'cause i slept about 3am last night! But i'm kinda happy today because i brought a lost dog back home to its owner! I was bringing winnie out for her morning walk and then i saw this little doggie which looks like a shih tzu just like Winnie! It has pretty little fur and has brown fur. It was walking around aimlessly and i recognised it, it's the shih tzu down the lane! I always called it the "shih tzu down the lane" cause the owner's house is just down Casuarina Road where i'm staying... I had a hard time making it follow me and winnie 'cause i can tell it's kinda afraid of me and winnie... So i patted it for a while and slowly, it began to follow us but still, walking aimlessly as if the whole road is hers. When it finally reached its house, i had a sigh of relief... It's back to its home sweet home...

1 June 2004

*sigh*, I don't know why i'm feeling guilty, but I just am!! Argh... I think i've been avoiding him for quite a while and that makes me feel so bad. Someone please tell me i should just drop dead... I hate being in such a situation. I'm going to mug the whole day tomorrow for my science understanding test which is coming up on thursday... I can never escape from science. I can't believe i'm taking it in business computing.

31 May 2004

Thank God we didn't screw up today's problem solving and cognitive processes module. Everything went pretty well but the rest of us in the team still aren't getting along well with the "I only care about the ICS dance item" girl. Talk about teamwork. -_-; Pathetic.

After school, i attended the ALC (Adventure Learning Club) meeting with Nora and Michelle for some briefing on some 2day camp. Oh well, it seems that i'm not going and so is Michelle because there's only activities like rock climbing and dragon boating during the 2day camp. I still remembered doing rock climbing in secondary 3 and there's no way i'm gonna do it again. James was also at the meeting too. He's a pretty friendly guy i should say.

29 May 2004

It's a Saturday and there's no school today 'cause cca haven't start yet! Argh, just got an interview yesterday from the adventure learning club 'cause kayaking is on my cca list! I hope i get thru... While waiting to get interviewed, i met this guy from some other class who always came to my class to ask mark help his team in visual basic.net every week. His name is James by the way. He looks like some malay chinese mix... I didn't ask him about that anyway. Oh yeah, he said i looked like his secondary school friend. And you know what, i think he looks a but like kevyn huang from my secondary school ya noe!

Anyway, argh. School sucks big time. Sometimes I just don't know how to describe my classmates. I just can't stand them. There's this other classmate who's a loafer in the team. Argh. She's bossy and she didn't do any work in the team and all she cares about is her stupid indian dance item. I'm not being racist but she's unreasonable 'cause when our work screwed up, she said, "why didn't you show me the powerpoint presentation??!". And all she did whole was doing her own stuff and she didn't even bother to look at the final presentation that we're supposed to present. Sick. I didn't say my class is full of idiotic people but only a few are okay. The rest are people with nonsensical personalities! Argh. Nevertheless, in poly, you get to see all types of people, and that makes me feel so intimidated. That's not the end but I'll stop my complaining here, >to be continued.

28 May 2004

As you can see, i don't post entries everyday. In fact, i'm like doing a DIY blog thingy so i'm pretty lazy. A lot of stuff happened in school and I'm about to go mad soon. Hey i'm serious, this whole PBL thingy has taken its toll on me! I think i'm also suffering from some secondary sch life deficiency syndrome. Argh!!!! I'll elaborate more tomorrow. It's now like, 12:13am so gotta sleep soon and finish up my RJ (reflection journal)! I'll complain about that too in my next entry.

20 May 2004

Hmm, it's been weeks ever since i uploaded my previously entry. I was kinda lazy to update 'cause I've been really busy on the whole PBL thingy! I'm struggling in it! I have to admit i love textbooks! Classes were quite fun at times, about two days before, the guys in my class were kinda comical... They were all making us laugh about some motivational songs. You'd say why we need motivational songs right? Because everyday we have to present a powerpoint presentation so we need all the courage and motivation to get up right in front of the class to present. The funny part is when they play the song, the most famous wong fei hong theme. And they blasted it so loud and repeated the same part again and again... Really, they're really a bunch of wacky guys...

Today's Visual basic.net lesson was kinda tough... Haiz... Computing is kinda difficult at time... Yeay! Finally got my first A for enterprise skills daily grade yesterday! So~ happy... I have been getting all the Bs.... and 3 Cs for my daily grades for the 2 weeks!

Hey, am I such an introvert? Okay I admit a bit, 'cause i'm kinda quiet to people i don't know... shao xia and ray were calling me "anti-social" like yesterday when I met them at the bus stop, and this morning! I mean, if i don't feel like eating and going to the canteen, it doesn't mean that i'm anti social right? Okay okay, so now i'm kinda talking more to them already and I realised that the guys in my class are so~ much different from that from my secondary school days... They tend to mix around with girls too, not just guys. But anyway, I still miss all my friends from secondary school... *sob sob*... Those were the days you know. Okay this is getting way too mushy already. ^^

09 May 2004

Today's Mother's Day and I haven't got anything for my mum yet. Actually i bought her pressie yesterday but i decided to buy her another one 'cause after detailed thinking, I don't think she'll like a pink handbag. So I kept that bag for myself. ^-^ I just got my second pay of a thousand and forty-nine bucks! Woo-hoo! But I had to transfer 600bucks to my mum's account 'cause i owed her money for my laptop... Because I suggested that we split the cost of my laptop (which was 2k).... I can't expect to pay the whole sum of my laptop right? I paid the other 400 when i got my first pay from hangten. I'm going to Junction 8 later to get my mom a pressie and look for a perfect "visual basic.net" guide book! I just simply lurve buying books... VB is actually quite fun and easy to use if ya know all the basics... So I'm going to learn all the basics in the book so i won't get lost during my VB. lesson... I kinda like the numerical and computer application module... You get to learn how to design and program.. how cool... But i'm kinda scared of the maths part. I heard from my facilitator that VB. is going to be all about maths too...

04 May 2004

Today's like my second day of school and it's really chaos like yesterday.. Yesterday I got that dumb sasser worm virus and that latest incurable gaobot (the one with an "!" mark) virus. What a first day to begin school with. At first I cleared that sasser worm virus on my notebook BUT!!! SO UNFORTUNATELY, i kenna that stupid gaobot! virus after that. And it totally left me and my notebook with no choice. I had to part with my pink & purple scheme in my notebook, my opening and closing sound files of All In's "Just like yesterday" (I recorded and saved it in my notebook, so now it's like gone forever...) and the one and only kim jae won picture in my notebook. Luckily I didn't transfer too many files to my laptop yet but i'm going to do so soon since my notebook is virus free now!

I totally screwed up my team's power point presentation... I was typing halfway and then a dialogue came up and i clicked on something with my elbow accidentally hitting the mouse button on the laptop. And poof!* all our previous work gone! Had to type and paste everything over again. And we were like left with 10 minutes to do everything up but when actually we were given 2 hours to complete it. Argh. How infuriating and our PowerPoint looked so last minute! So totally screwed up today. Bad 2nd day. 1st day was also bad. ....speechless.

5 March 2005

just when i was about to give up on everything, i chanced upon a malaysian channel and bsb was on some advertisement for a tsunami fund-raising concert. was really curious about what's it all about so i went to the official bsb site and i saw this:

" 2/25/05 - Tsunami Relief Concert
The Backstreet Boys will join friends Boyz II Men, The Black Eyed Peas and others at the Force of Nature Tsunami Relief Concert on March 18th at at Stadium Putra in Bukit Jalil, Kuala Lumpur. "

my first thought: god has decided to bring BSB closer to me.  so near, yet soooo far; KL, malaysia.

and recently,

1. kim jae won oppa was in town and i was this~ close to him; we were both on the same island (i didn't get to see him in person -_-)

2. even much closer, i got to see won bin oppa when he was in town.

god wants me to meet all the people i've been wanting to meet before i take my leave. great. i'm going to spend every single cent in my bank account; use it while i can. have to squeeze my useless brain cells to find a way to get the tickets and fly to KL.

3 March 2005

piece of advice: if you hate/dislike someone, don't try to act friendly to that certain someone, you know. hate it when people are hypocrites themselves and then go around telling everyone that they're hypocrites. it's not nice. NOT NICE, i tell you.

my past 17 years on this planet had been pretty much enjoyable; although there were some tough times, it pretty much contributed to some of the happy moments in my life. i should just drop dead soon, so that i'll be able to remember the past 17 years of enjoyment and the good tough times. i know i'm going to miss out on a lot of events later on in life, but i am not interested in knowing what's going to be next, because i know everything ahead is going to be sucky for me.

suddenly, god has decided to torture me for the rest of my life. poly life is not going well for me. stoooopid modules i have to take next year. and the other things i'm unhappy about. i'm not cut out to be on this planet.

i hope the fever kills me in my sleep tonight. goodbye. i love you all.

2 March 2005

jason was right, i don't give a damn about enterprise anymore.

someone knock some sense into me, PLEASE. i'm losing interest in everything about school. EVERYTHING. i hate to say it, but my life's ruined. so ruined, i wished i wasn't born into this world. i'm surprised that i've dealt with this shyt for so long. *self applauds.

i will shoot myself if i miss the last science UT (again) tomorrow.

" You able to provide clear reasoning to questions posted to you and your team. You have also shown good understanding on the subject. You did well in your quiz and your peer evaluation looks ok. "

with such comments, i got a freaking B for a daily grade! i hope it's not anything about peer evaluation.

oh hell, i'm going to get D for my science overall grade. blardy lousy UT grades and mediocre daily grades -- they are getting me to that dreaded D. OH GREAT. *self applauds again.

27 February 2005

i feel greeeat the whole of today. almost.

firstly, i went jogging with shuimin (early in the morning!) after so many months of lazing, ever since pamela gave up jogging. took breakfast before heading to MacRitchie reservoir, which was a wrong WRONG move. We ran about 2km or so, and all of a sudden i had this terrible stomachache. it must be the running and breakfast. it was so darn terrible; i almost died in the forest. nahh not that bad, but it was TERRIBLE la. we took a break, a LONG break on the bench, felt a bit better but it was still terrible. so i sat, and i sat, and sat. a few kind weekend joggers stopped by and asked the both of us whether i'm alright or not, and offered water. it definitely helped a little, and i'm really grateful for their help. i didnt want to move my butt away from the bench 'cause i think the pain is too much to bear if i were to stand up and walk, and i felt better sitting down. after a while, 2 joggers came to us and advised me to get up for a slow walk back to the start of the jogging trail. they were actually jogging initially, but  they were really thoughtful; they walked back all the way with us. if those 2 guys didn't ask us to get up, we'll probably stay on the bench for another few more hours or rather, until i feel absolutely safe to get up and walk.

secondly, i finally got my long-awaited digital camera! the olympus µ mini. yeay. at the same time, i'm like, 499 bucks poorer now. i don't know why, but i'm always feeling broke.

 21 February 2005

i feel terrible and mean for criticizing angeline lim all the time when she just started facilitating the class. today i saw the really nice side of her. she spoke to most of us personally, encouraging us to do better for our next UT. and she also helped nita a BIG one today.

My grades are dropping, and i'm crying. i can't maintain my 3.4 GPA grade anymore. if i were to get above 3.4 for this semester's GPA, i swear i'll go up to him and say he's cute. - i think i should stop cooing about his cuteness for once.

19 February 2005

i CANNOT bowl for nuts. was at some rotaract bowling competition (read COMPETITION) where awards like, best female bowler, best male bowler, best group, and even longkangking/queen titles were given out. it was terrible la. it's either i threw the ball into the drain, or strike by sheer luck. most of the time, the ball went into the drain, and i only scored 2 strikes in 3 games. yeap, i scored the lowest in my group, how embarrassing. i don't know how i fared overall, so i decided to run off before they could give/read out the awards/titles. just in case i'm the one with the lowest score ya know.

i want a credit card. i just saw this taegukgi hanging calendar at some shopping site (shopping heaven for korean dramas/movies' memorabilia and limited edition DVDs). if only i have a credit card now. *huge SIGH.

18 February 2005

RP's open house is BORING la. sat at the booth, stoning the WHOLE time. and i saw a bunch of SJI boys past by, and i was like, "what the hell are you guys doing here???"! i'm freaking broke. cabbed to school and then i realise it's alright to be late 'cause aza was sooo much later than me. 8bucks down RP's drain.

after that boring open house, headed all the way to woodlands (school's moving there soon -_-, which means more late records for me) and had an awesome time taking neoprints with nora (not HRH nora) today. 3 times of neoprints! i'm broke la. but it was all worthwhile anyways. thank you sooo much for the won bin and kim jae won postcards, nora! muackz.

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OMG. i just got to know that kim jae won's in singapore now. like, NOW. currently staying in somewhere on this tiny island. this is so surreal. gawd. i want to see kim jae won oppa!!!!

16 February 2005

got this early in the morning. -_-

Name: ...
URL or e-mail add:  
Comment: u r bein 2 obessed with tis...get a life...

i don't know who you are but well, i've got a life to blog about. i write for myself, and no one else. i can't help it if you're unhappy with it anyway. you are obviously one moron who has a problem with spelling WORDS. anyways, peace out.

15 February 2005

Valentine's day is over. deal with it, RP!

dumb school is still infatuated with blasting english/mandarin/malay/tamil love songs with uber disgusting dedications. wrong timing some more. there are students who want to get on with their schoolwork ya know! hello, if you want to dedicate sweet-nothings to someone, just write in to Perfect 10's Say It With Music la. at least it's not some lousy school dedication booth right. gosh, the dedication booth will still be there tomorrow. and that darn speaker is just right downstairs, in front of my class. aiyar tomorrow's the "last" day of school, so heck the darn music la. i am not totally against love songs, but it's just that sickening atmosphere they're trying to create.

i don't know how many times i've slapped my head for today's lesson. disgusting VB. driving me nuts with add.maths! differentiation. maybe it was a wrong move to drop add.maths in secondary school. stupid move, dumb move. i might just break down because of VB anytime soon. 

i seriously need a BREAK.

 i just realised i need a lot money to fulfill my wants. moreover some class chalet is coming up and my malaysia trip with shui min and co. are going to burn really big holes in my pocket. where is that part-time job!!!

what a sad stage of life. -_-

11 February 2005

watched constantine with the two towers today. it was uber intimidating. uggggh, why can't i grow any taller? edmund's kind enough to pass me a really old BSB poster, where nick had this horrendous side-partings during BSB's debut album days. oh yeah, dom's birthday present is tomorrow and we got him a pressie, a jay chou cd lol! awww how nice of us haha.

anyways, keanu reeves is hot. loved his character as john constantine.

i don't wanna talk about chinese new year. it sucks.

08 February 2005

ackackack. everytime i go back to secondary school, secondary school peeps will come up to me and say that i've gained weight. this time round, i'm not even spared by the discipline master! mr poogan went like, "oh you again! you're slimmer!", with much sarcasm actually. although i've got no idea where that "oh you again" came from, i guess he probably remembered me as that blur councillor who screwed up flag raising during important events. hey i was just starting out back then, after that i did okay on normal days what.

anyways, so the other time was last year's teacher's day celebration. and only darryl said that i've grown rounder. only him. and i was already quite struck by his words then. and this time, today's chinese new year celebration (which is just a few months after teacher's day celebration!), exactly 4 people told me that i've gained weight. -_- *cries! first it was stanley, then jun rong, then came mr poogan, and lastly yvonne. she had to add that i looked slimmer in sec 4. bad enough. -_- i'm about to fall into another stage of depression.

so what's the freaking problem with me?

problem #1: there's no P.E. in poly curriculum

problem #2: maid cooks uber nice food at home and i can't control myself

problem #3: poly peeps and i have been going to fastfood restaurants, town's like fastfood heaven, other than shopping heaven.

bottom line is, i have no SELF DISCIPLINE.

oh yeah, matthew said i've grown taller though. to confirm that, someone help me measure my height, please!

01 February 2005

i. am. so. freaking. pissed. yea. first of all, i missed the damn 3rd science UT. and secondly, i got a D+ for my second one. so for the record, my current science score is: D, D+ and a X (for missing the test!). i'm not a science and maths person, i can't study science for nuts. How on earth am i supposed to get an A for the last science UT to pull up the freaking D, D+ and X! i'm sooo going to get a horrible overall grade for science. which moron will be soo dumb as to wait for a taxi for 1 whole hour and take a bus to school in the end?! dumb dumb. should have gotten onto the 132 when it was still 7:55am! the UT was supposed to 8:30am sharp and a 10 minutes grace given to latecomers. so i thought the latest i could reach school is 8:40am. MORON. now that i've figured it all out by recalling the times, i could have gotten to school on time for the test! soong wei ling jamie, for heaven's sake, please stop sleeping late and please stop sleeping in the bathroom. -_-

And they always say, you lose some, you gain some. guess what, i got an A for the second VB UT?! i can't do programming for nuts and mathematics in VB drives me nuts. did they mark my submission wrongly or something? frankly speaking, i would prefer that A to appear as my last science UT result.

I am still very bummed. missing the darn UT. for the first time in my entire poly life. sleep early, for god's sake!

25 January 2005

omgomgomg. this is one of the stoopid entries i'm posting, so skip this. omg he dyed his hair! was it light brown or copper? i want to dye my hair too, please??? eye candy is the only thing that keeps me going in school lol. i'm just kidding, but everything about school sucks with the exception of eye candy. lol the one and only decent one. i'm amused by how i change my moods so quickly. i just don't understand myself sometimes.

I'm done. So not looking forward to science lessons tomorrow. -_-

Tripod is driving me nuts. that ad banner just appeared on my left section of the page, now it's soooo ugly. i need to change my layout soon. i hate editing html. someone please make me as pro as him!!!!

22 January 2005

Bitch. I hate you to the max. sensitive bitch. unreasonable bitch. you call me rude 24/7? if i'm really that rude, i'll probably end up in girls' home now.  argh. i wanna leave home. i wanna die. you think i'm a glutton or something? i'm forced to eat dinner back home when i told you i've already eaten outside. then you throw me your left-over pizza bits 'cause you cant finish it because you want to keep your-oh-so-fit figure? who wouldn't get fed-up?  i'm going to go on a hunger strike from tomorrow onwards. i'm just better off dead. x_x

19 January 2005

Just realised i fulfilled 2 of my "want" items like, FINALLY. Firstly, my mom decided to buy that pair of slippers for me because she knows i'm broke and i dont have a proper pair of nice slippers. Thanks to julian, i finally got my korean jersey! Yippee! LOL, what will i do without yong hun haha. Sheesh, but i think the jersey's kinda big for me, i think i can sleep in it la. Anyways, point is, i got the jersey. That's all it matters lol. Woah, the jersey colour's a bit too shocking pink, i think i'll scare the wits outta everyone when i go to school in it. =)

 14 January 2005

It's either something's wrong with me or my dad. I can't seem to talk to him AT ALL. Nowadays he comes home early, and before i know it, he's sleeping. I don't even get the chance to ask him about the YEP trip to medan. Apparently my mom thinks it's kinda risky to go there and so i'm supposed to ask my dad for permission 'cause she didn't give me a yes/no answer. I'm trying to find a right time to talk to him about it, but most of the time he's kinda moody. My dad's weird; the other time i asked him for permission to go to the Malacca/Kota Tinggi trip and he was like soooo against it. It took me quite some time to persuade him and i usually end up being labeled "rude". Shucks, i've only got 2 more days left to ask for his permission. -_-

13 January 2005

I totally dig today's lesson. CNA (culture and arts that is, from now on i'll stop calling it CNC - culture and comm?) rocks!!!! I mean, how often do i enjoy lessons? 1 out of 5 days. Ha, music's interesting and i hope we'll start on languages soon, but i highly doubt they'll include that in CNA module, well, i'll just cross my fingers. Speaking about languages, i'm gonna start revising my korean language soon 'cause i was reminded of it when i saw my teacher at won bin's press conference. It beats better than doing nothing at home, do rj and nothing else. I seriously need to do something meaningful other than watching tv, reading magazines and playing neopets. -_- Shopping is out until post chinese new year, but window shopping won't kill.

I'm mood-swinging back home, as usual. Nothing seems to be right here.

12 January 2005

I think today's the happiest day of my life. Okay maybe it's wrong to use that phrase but it was definitely some kinda  reward to compensate all the shyt i had to go through during the year 2004. So well, today's probably the happiest day of my life in 2005, that is. It was kinda an adventure too, lol. i love adventures!

How do i even go about summing up the whole thing? I'll definitely read this entry over and over again when i'm depressed. Man, everything went quite well today. Firstly, i had to take that science test and i swear it was easier than the first one. Well, i won't say it's easy or difficult, but i think i'll expect a grade better than D this time round. So well, it was a good start in the morning. Rushed off to changi from school, and oh yea, it's my first time taking a mrt ride to changi airport! and the changi airport mrt terminal's like soooo cool! It's always good to go to new places ya know. Anyways, i couldnt contact amanda and nora 'cause i saved the wrong number with 7digits only. I'm really absent-minded, i know. Well all i need is internet connection, and i'll get the number online So i headed to Mac, since my laptop's with me and there's free wireless internet service.

When i tried switching on my laptop, this middle-aged japanese man approached me and asked something transferring web folders and stuffs then he tried introducing himself, he's a writer and then he goes on saying he writes haikus, poems and all that. And i was like, stoning there, nodding my head now and then. I totally didn't know what to do. My whole intention of going to mac was to get internet connection, retrieve a phone number and zoom, look for them. And then he goes on ranting about writing and started bringing out some of his work. Found out that he's stuck in changi airport for quite some time and he's raising money to go back to Europe. Very "Terminal" like, LOL. It's like a hint, so well, i find it hard to reject so i gave him a little donation and he gave me his book, which is of photocopy material actually. But well it was kinda interesting.

It wasn't too late when i retrieved nora's number so i got to catch up with them. All of us were from the forum so we didn't know each other, until like, today! Everyone's from like different schools and walks of life. Quite a handful from universities, SMU, NTU, etc. Some are like, having the post O/A levels holidays, some skipped school, like me lol! So the waiting game began at about 1030, for me, that is. 'cause of the science UT and all that. i think it took me less than 30 minutes to reach changi! So we chatted and chatted, about school, life, won bin duh, and took some photos together.

Then came the reporters, well there we had the blur but kinda cute one, the hippy but bitchy looking one, the friend (of yunjia [uni life's kinda interesting i think]), the uncle (prolly from some chinese newspaper), the not-so-bad looking and the other bunch of not-so-outstanding reporters. I've seen my fair share of reporters today. good, bad. That blur but kinda cute one's kinda approachable i think, it's not in terms of we approaching him but in terms of like, you know, the way he talks to us and all that, he's pretty friendly. Then there's this really hippy but bitchy female reporter, i think she has very good fashion sense, compared to the other reporters. When she shot photos of us, it was like as if her camera was a revolver and she was shooting all of us with 3 shots, 3 camera shots at one go. And we totally didn't see that coming at all. we were all pretty oblivious.

Anyways, when he came out from the arrival hall, we were all hysterical!!! man, i think i'll do the same if bsb came too. all my life i've never met bsb at all. how pathetic. all those girls met their a1, westlife, blue and all that, but i have yet to meet bsb!! Grumbles aside, now back to won bin, oh myyyy he's kinda bony but well won bin oppa is still hot, never mind that scrawniness, his two years in army will do magic, lol!

We had all the details of where won bin oppa was staying, but we, the fans, are considerate enough not to follow him all the way there 'cause our won bin oppa is kinda shy and soft-spoken so we don't want to scare him like those 5566/SHE fans ya know. So we headed to IMM for the press conference, and the waiting game began. Waited for like about 3 hours+ for the press conference to start, so it wasnt that bad. Man, now when i come to think about how i waited for Singapore Idol, i think i'm a fool laaaaa. Waiting for like half the day?! I mean they're all singaporeans! Foolish me, next time i'll just GET the tickets or don't go at all. Waiting for won bin oppa is all worthwhile, i mean, how often do korean stars like him fly by here??? Ryu Shi Won and Bae Yong Jun aside, 'cause i think they're pretty okay la, nothing much, nothing appealing. Oh yeahhh, and my ex korean lang teacher was one of the two interpreters present at the conference! They introduced all the people at the conference, 2 interpreters, director, producer, and won bin duhhhh!!! When they introduced Ms Stella Kim, i was like going, "sonsaengnim!!!" lol, i did that cause i was quite at the front ya know, but well she didnt see me cause i was behind this girl. I think the DJ heard me and she went on to say that Ms Kim's  also a teacher. And i remembered sonsaengnim (we usually call her 'teacher' in class) saying that she had this DJ student in her advanced course in school. Well, which is prolly why sonsaengnim was one of the interpreters for the conference! OMG. and sonsaengnim was like 2 seats away from won bin oppa!!! OH MYYYYY. I think she almost fainted too laaaa. She likes Sung Si Kyung and in my opinion, Won Bin is hotter than Sung Shi Kyung, so well there is no reason why she shouldn't go gaga over Won Bin!

Dang it. Couldnt go to the premiere of the movie (won bin would make his appearance and give a 'thank you' speech before the movie begins). ARGGGGH. They don't even want to sell the premiere tickets (like what they did for brotherhood - taegukgi!)! The premiere's only for like, the friends of the media or something. pffffft. Ohhh wells, got to Lido anyway and caught one last glimpse of won bin before he leaves Singapore tomorrow. I cannot afford to skip another lesson anymore. So we got to the lido exit and saw some middle-aged working women there, apparently they're not really fans of won bin, they're actually bae yong jun fans. They just wanted to catch a glimpse of Bae Yong Jun's fellow countryman lol. Chatted with them while waiting (again!...) and found out that bae yong jun's very open and friendly. Heard that he even stops for autographs, hug the fans, smile at them and all that. Awwwwwwwwww. Too bad won bin's the shy type. His shyness is awwwwww.... okay la, shy guys are better i think. won bin oppa's like a little puppy, soooo quiet, fragile that kind. AWWWWWWWWWW. He's soooo cute.

Oh yeah, this is nothing significant, but yeah, saw toro (clad in normal casual attire) at lido too. He wasn't there for the premiere though, and apparently he said he's meeting someone from the cast of "The Champion" later on. It's soooooo obvious he's dating fiona xie!

Oh well, there you have it, my version of 8days and i-weekly.

I'm sooo high this entry's like the longest ever.

7 January 2005

Shyt. It was soooooo embarrassing. Marcus saw him (!!!! and said hi) again and sadly, i wasn't with Marcus! Dang it. Arghhh i'm kicking a big fuss outta a simple thing like this. -.- I was somehow behind chatting up with a group of pals and then i saw him walking past! And i swear he saw me too. I seriously think he knows that i have a somewhat crush on him. But i don't think it's a crush, i think it's just eye candy. i just think he's cute laaaaa.

Stupid me. -_-;

5 January 2005

I'm freaking tired, freaking sick of all these nonsense.

4 January 2005

Bad. Even though i studied 2 days before today's understanding test, i think i'm gonna do quite badly. When i saw the questions, my mind was like, "omg, crap, i've forgotten everything." I am going to flip if i get anything below a B+ for it. It's going to be either an A or B+. I swear i'll just go mad if it's anything besides those. I'm already on the verge of having an unstable mind. You think you're the only one in the house who's mentally unstable? - hey you don't even bother to look at me. All the crap i have to go through is almost as bad as what you're going through.

I hate this freaking place, i seriously do.

And shut up, stop complaining about your weight. I don't want to know. I can't stand it. Just DON'T complain in front of me. -.-

3 January 2005

First day of school - total letdown, as expected. Never wanted school to reopen AT ALL. Visual Basic is making sick. I hate Mondays, period. -.-

28 December 2004

Went to town, for the so-called private sale for isetan cardholders and eurgh, it was packed, as if everything there was free or something. -_- People push you without saying sorry. I couldn't get new clothes for school! My mom said that dress and denim skirt i got today is for Chinese New Year. -_-; And CNY's like how many months away! Argh.

The year's coming to an end soon and it's that time to make new year resolutions again. I don't really follow my resolutions but i'm gonna make sure i follow them next year. i still have sooooo many unfulfilled resolutions. x_x

25 December 2004

Christmas was -_- bleh. i ran out of vocab to describe it.

21 December 2004

4 days to christmas, 13 days to school's reopen. Boy, i hate it. Nobody understands what crap i have to go through in school. This is pathetic, i'm left with 13 days to enjoy, and channel 5 just had to start the new season of the bachelor this thursday. great, i'll just be a couch potato on thursdays. i hope i'll get easy Reflection Journals on thursdays.

19 December 2004

You should check this out. According to them, i don't look chinese, at all? i am so amused. and what, my archetype is a blue collar??!! Blue collar????!!!! am i destined to be poor or something? My life's pathetic, i'm feeling pathetic, and i'm going mad soon.

17 December 2004

Argh. something is seriously wrong with me.

16 December 2004

Ack i'm left with 2 pathetic weeks to play with. And the worst of all,  a VB class the first day of school. And please, no virus outbreak again. I'll just quit school immediately. Why, why have i grown to hate school so much? I am missing my secondary school life to bits. I am sick and tired of pushing myself to get better daily grades. Just give me the homework, i promise i'll do it! I want NO Problem Based Learning! To crap with Reflection Journals and Self Evaluations. To crap with presentations and speaking up. I am probably the only student whining while the others are fine with this crap RP system. I know, i am problematic to the core. JC students, i know you're in a worse plight than me, but hang in there, you'll get a pretty A level cert soon. For me, well, RP's a freaking new school and i know i'm not going to do very well after my 3 years in there. What can i do with a RP diploma - nothing, zilch, null. Life's just not going the way i want it to be yea. I am sick and tired of putting up with crap in school. i am totally sick of it. -_-

14 December 2004

Oh. My. Gawd. I am finally getting my long awaited customised jersey. When school reopens, don't ask me why i'm not eating, not going to town. i'm pretty much done with shopping. I need to stop spending money and get more tuition assignments. In other words, i am broke, period. i seriously need a break, from like, everything. i shall not worry over the little things that you do anymore. i shall act nonchalant. -_-

13 December 2004

Back from Malaysia. The trip was awesome! Going to the village, a little bit of shopping and of course, RYLA camp! If you read my previous post (6 Dec) - LOL. I'm like, back to contradict myself again. I am taking back my words about the trip with reference to the 6 Dec post. RLYA camp rocks my socks man!

Man, i lurve every single day of the trip. 6days? 1 day at the village, 1 day of looking around and shopping, 4 days of RYLA camp.

Well, the living conditions in the village are pretty bad, and i kinda appreciate the roof above my head even more. Omg, the kids there are sooo cute, although i don't speak their language, overall we all had fun interacting with the little kids. We had games ( some Malay/English word games like "hang man" and "win lose or draw") that allowed us to communicate with them. They were all smiling upon receiving the little presents from us. That smile on their faces were priceless man.

Shopping in City Square was kinda better than usual. 'Cause usually my mom brings me there to shop but this time, i was shopping alone with my friends! Cool, isn't  it? I had a fun time shopping for stuffs to bring back home. =)

Camp was great. Way better than i've expected. It's definitely one of the best camps i've attended! 4 days may seem short, but spending almost 4 whole days as a team together kinda bonded us together ya know. Going through all the team building games, obstacle courses and talent-time, etc. I remembered, during one camp a few years ago, an incident where i was supposed to fall down freely from some table onto my team mates' hands and when i saw someone demonstrated falling onto my team members hands and fell on his back. So when they told me to fall onto my team members, i was kinda skeptical about that. Anyways, for RYLA camp, our team building session was great. We had to carry each other across some web and trust was definitely there. Imagine getting carried across some strings high up like, maybe 1.8  metres? It brings back memories of what happened in a past camp. I've got to thank Nick and Ronnie for being there to carry me through, i'm like, 46kg ya know, so if your hands are aching now, i'm really sorry. Oh yeah, my team rocks - we're the champions for talent-time. Great job done by Nick who was leading the team, and ma-ma Danielle for her winning skit idea. And of course, my other team-mates, Ros (my roomie), Farah (my roomie too), Sarah J, Ronnie, Dayton, Khatijah and Chun Chun (2 fellow RP rotaractors) who were giving one another support and encouragement. Made quite a handful of new friends from Malaysia. I'll keep them all close to my heart. We are "The Incredibles" yea? Last but not least, i actually got to experience the waterfall at kota tinggi. LOL i think i'm acting like a country bumpkin, but whatever.

i think i'm going to miss the days in RYLA.

6 December 2004

I feel bad about slamming sly all the time so, here's a change. (picture removed 'cause i still think it's an eye-sore) I was surfing friendster the other day and i saw this really cool pic. And i swear it's his best picture. I still think he's better off in the mando-pop scene so yeah, probably comparable to jay chou? He's not really my definition of cute, but well i guess this is enough to cover up all the sly slamming(s) i've done. If it doesn't, then too bad i guess.

Anyways currently, i'm quite broke. I'm forking out most of my shopping expense in malaysia all by myself. And my trip? i paid half of it all by myself. so please do not assume i have money and ask for it from me. Well, but the good news is, i can get my jersey soon! yeay! my long-awaited jersey ya know. so, it's about 68bucks, which once again, highlight the fact that i'm going to be uber broke. for the next few months. oh i can't wait for chinese new year. i'll get new clothes and money, oh spare me the "which school are you in" and "how old are you". you guys ask that all the time. ask something new will ya?

Will be off to Malaysia like, tomorrow? i'm not really excited about the trip actually, 'cause i'll be spending tons. I'm contradicting myself, i know - i'll look forward to shopping there. I'll probably throw a bitch fit if they refuse to let us do so.

1 December 2004

I'm sooooooooo glad taufik won singapore idol. I know my 2 votes might mean nothing, but well apparently, many of us voted for him!  it's better than those - one go use 10K to vote for sylvester.

Skipped school today to do something crazy. Yeah, was part of the Idol madness together with nora and marcus. I need some madness in my life, for i have never been to a Backstreet Boys concert/fan-meeting session (so out of my reach) and i happen not to like taiwanese boybands, so no chance for me to do mad chasing/idol sighting you know. And lastly, it's because - school sucks to the max with crappy/unreasonable/lousy facilitators, and of course PBL itself duh. Anyways, it was an experience indeed.

Argh, Dominic and Edmund, lucky you! No worries dom, i would have felt guilty going in your place. You won the tickets, so yea, you deserved it. i'm just down with BAD BAD luck. I'm soo sorry marcus and nora! Daniel Ong's a liar.

Especially marcus, you weren't too interested in the whole Idol idea, but you came along. i'm so sorry you had to bear the heat and screamings with us. we go get your kelly clarkson cd tml okies?

Nora preserved her screams for chrissypoo and olinda. Quite surprising eh.

Saw david and chrissypoo on the red carpet! David and Chrissypoo's still looking cute as usual.

I don't know, the way i see sly supporters, they remind me of 5566/energy/tension and what not supporters. Well, sly supporters, you don't have to cry buckets 'cause your idol is offered a chinese recording contract. you can all hear him sing in songs like jay chou's yea. But well, i have to salute sly fans though, they can scream like there's no tomorrow. Even when sly is not there they scream. I mean, "hello???", you're in Singapore, it's not as if he's going to fly here and go back to mars or something.

Although i like taufik for his talent, i won't go to the extent of screaming. I'll buy his album, that's a sure thing. Although i like david for (er, many reasons?), i won't go screaming. i just don't belong to the screaming group.

But, I will only do screaming for the Backstreet Boys if they ever touch down on Singapore. I can't wait for their new album.

Taufik Batisah, yeah he deserves it sooo much! His mommy will be so proud of him. Anyways, quite a huge number of us managed to keep our citizenship. LOL.

29 November 2004

I know this is becoming cliché, but... Argh, somebody up there hates me!!! WHY IS EVERYONE GOING TO THE FINAL SHOWDOWN EXCEPT ME? Edmund just told me Dominic won a pair of tickets and he's going with him. ARGH!!!! and Qiuhui's going too! God, did you leave me out on purpose?!

I wanna see david and taufik perform!!! Oh and eye-candy chrissypoo will be there too!

I'm praying that private number will call again. For all i know, it might be from 8days/lime/today!

28 November 2004

i'm not feeling emotional or something...

song stuck in my head: Within You'll Remain by Tokyo Square


facing the world with an empty heart
i could disappear, into the dark
and you were the one who could make
my dreams come true, my dear its you

when you're not around
my heart stood still
within you'll remain
and always will

illusion says there is another man
who will interfere, into my plans

wo ai ni...
i love you
wo ai ni...
i need you
more than i ever did anyone,
i never felt like this before

wo ai ni...
i want you
wo ai ni...
i need you
we could be two lovers from the past
and the future is our chance

... i just can't get this song out of my head. the music's (no, not the lyrics) soooo oriental. i'm beginning to appreciate chinese music here. Anyways Mando-pop is still OUT.

and here's another.

song stuck in my head: A Soul's Caress/Belaian Jiwa  by Innuendo

I no longer think of you.
Love, you are gone, even if I wait
till the end of my existence,
Still you know how much I love you,
only an Angel can compare (to you).
Yet Fate determines these things.
Oh, my Soul's Caress

Let the wind send my song to her,
this lonesome melody of mine,
Let this song be her companion forever.
You know how much I love you,
only an Angel can compare.
Yet Fate determines these things.
Oh my Soul's Caress.


Seindah tiada lagi kau ku ingatkan
Sayang kau hilang
Menanti biar sampai akhir hayat ku di dunia ini
Kau tahu bertapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa
Oh angin, sampaikan lagu ku padanya
yang sedih pilu
Terimalah lagu ku jadi teman hidup mu
Untuk selamanya
Kau tahu bertapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir
Menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

... i'm perfectly sane. i'm not sad or anything.

26 November 2004

I hate those lifeless ulcers in my mouth, i think i should fast from tomorrow onwards or something. Stop McDonalds. Stop LJS. Stop Burger King. I thought eating fast food would help, but i've finally come to terms that salt from fast food is not helping a least bit at all. Yikes.

I'm a 바보, period.

25 November 2004

It's 12:58am now. oh my gawd. he's soooooooooooooooooo cute, soooooooooooooooo sweet that i think i'm gonna get diabetes soon. Someone please smack me in my head, i should stop going to friendster for a while.

Life in school can get pretty wacky at times.

On a serious note, there are times i get treatments i don't deserve to receive. i need to get this off my chest. Are you doing this to us or me? You make me feel pissed too. But hey, do i even show it? i don't even know what's wrong. i'm not psychic.

24 November 2004

Tripod hates me. I always cannot update my website through ftp at this time (9-10pm SGT). this sucks. i cannot think of a better free web host. geocities disallows ftp upload through FrontPage, so i guess i have no choice but to stick to tripod.

Today wasn't as interesting as yesterday. ^-^ Ooh, a Caucasian facilitator will relief Mr Lee for tomorrow's culture and arts module. I hope he's an eye candy. *beams~

23 November 2004

Something is seriously wrong with me. Nora, Mich and Marc said i'm getting bimbotic. i must do some self-searching some time soon.

But anyways, we finally know his name. After like, 3 weeks or so? Lol. I never knew i was this crazy. Before that i was kinda sane, kinda blur (that's not considered ditzy, that's just complete 'blurness' because friends around me were too clever) in sec school but now something's just gotten into me. i'm getting bimbotic. so i'll have no brains soon la.

I forsee a drop in my GPA. I couldn't even concentrate in today's science module JUST now.

22 November 2004

4 things that made me go "argh!" and "*envies" today.

1.    Got 3 jabs for some vaccination against diseases in Malaysia (for school trip, duh).

2.    Marcus saw eye candy! And he said "hi" to him. -_-

3.    Shawn said he's preparing his trip to Korea. He just had to remind me. -_-;

4.    Yong Hun said he might be going to Korea end of next year with Julian and maybe Sam.

Oh, they happen to be in chronological order. 

I don't what's next to shock/scare/get me. I can't study for tomorrow's test with all these bugging me!

19 November 2004

Yeay, taufik got in! Every vote sure counts! My mom is probably gonna gawk at me when she sees my handphone bill this month! Anyways, I was EXPECTING sylvester to be out cause i just cant stand him! Look at him! He's an ah beng and his fan base consists of all ah lians, or rather, chinese girls! It's not that i'm not chinese or something, but sylvester is BORING. And he's an ugly fug la. What's sooooooo cool about him. I cringe whenever i see girls in the audience carrying a huge poster of a very ugly pic of sylvester. I always thought, "why can't they find a better picture of him???" Yea, so there,  you get my point right? Sylvester can't be Singapore Idol for sure. He's better off singing his own chinese songs or singing in his previous band.

The tripod server hasn't been working well lately, it took me quite some time to upload the new changes. I'll keep the simple layout as long as possible, so well, the theme here is Stairway to Heaven. Ooh, and my favourite colour pink!

Just cleared my wishlist, cause i have to make way for more "want"s!

12 November 2004

Stop screaming, you piece of moronic fool. Scream for all i care, you'll get wrinkles. Not me. You made me hate you. I wasn't born to hate you, but now you made me hate you. Stop being sensitive, sheesh. You said that grandma is sensitive, aren't you sensitive just as well?! I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I typed that out wholeheartedly. I hate wiping my tears in front of you. You're the worst mom one can ever have. And i'm probably the worst daughter you can ever have, yea. I hate staying at home. Let me leave this place. Or let me die in my malaysia trip this december, since daddy mentioned about people getting murdered or kidnapped in malaysia. I'll be better off dead.

 11 November 2004

I'm pretty lazy to update this part of the website, cause i'm making some changes to the layout and some restructuring in links. I'm ecstatic. Eye candy was in sight. ^-^ He's like soooo kyuuute. I swear he's different from majority of the bunch of guys in my class. -_- I am seriously not crushing on him, or am i? Sheesh, because of this, I'm also pretty confused now. I'm soooo glad it's public holiday tomorrow, i've been waiting for a holiday!

04 November 2004

I seriously hate the messed up "side bar" on the left of this webby. I am going to change it soon, it's such an eyesore.

I am officially one of the late comers for semester 2. I was like, one of the early birds in semester 1! It's all my dad's fault, he didn't want to send me to school anymore cause i quarreled with him about punctuality the other time. Okay it's my fault. I just realised that i have this strange ability to sleep while standing on the bus. It's amazing, i don't know how i did it, but i just slept standing throughout the whole bus journey from home to far east plaza. Boarded 132 from there and i finally get to SEAT on the bus and take a wink again. This has been happening for 2 consecutive days. Couldn't find a seat on 167 yesterday, couldn't find a seat on 167 today. I dread a crowded 167 bus tomorrow. I need to sleep early and wake up early from tomorrow onwards.

Eye candy wasn't anywhere in sight today. -_-

01 November 2004

Retail therapy didn't go well today, and i'm not exactly depressed but i just felt like buying something. But anyway, i found something to buy when i was at thomson plaza! Got an adidas handbag, it's soooooo nice~ I bet i would regret it if i didn't buy it just now.

I'm not depressed, i'm infuriated. and. i'm infatuated.

Firstly, i've totally lost interest in that dumb problem solving module. First 3 C's are enough to make me lose interest in that module. Besides, i anticipate another C cause i screwed up my presentation, and that makes it 4 C's, enough to kill me. My other problem modules are VB and science. Oh and add enterprise in too, i don't know why, i just don't like it suddenly. Which leaves Culture and Communication or rather Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics (that's what they call it this semester) the only module that i look forward to. Ah, whatever. Life's not turning out to way i want it to be. I'm mad. I'm infuriated.

Secondly, - Oh. My. Gawd. I know i've repeated this like a zillion times, but *sigh, he's so kyuuuuute la. Fine, i think i've cooed enough. But still, not fair(!!!!), he recognizes marcus! Hrmph. Cool it, it's just not a crush. No big deal.

31 October 2004

Oh. My Gawd. I had a greaat weekend.

Firstly, i took a pic with david yeo yesterday!!!

Yesterday was halloween night @sentosa/school - marcus, nora and i were rushing to the nearest dbs atm in takashimaya before rushing to school and then marcus went "I think i saw david yeo." suddenly! Oh my gawd. We followed (literally stalked) him from takashimaya to wisma atria. I soooooo wanted get his pic using my cammy phone, i got soooooooooooooo freaked out that i asked nora to help me take a shot of him, at his back actually. Thanks for trying, nora! :) muackz. Now, here's the climax, marcus went up to david and said, "my friend's a really big fan of yours and she wants to take a photo with ya". And there you go, i got a chance to take a pic with him. I think i looked shocked and horrid while david looked fab! I'm an idiot la, should have chatted with david for a while! I wanted to say, "i'm the one who wrote ya a friendster testimonial that my mom and i thought you look like a korean star", and asking how he's been doing and stuffs, and obviously, i was too shocked to say anything. I'm like, shook his hand and went "hi david,"  he asked for my name, and he went "Thank you very much jamie", shook my hand again and he smiled!!!  Oh gawd. I'm psyched. Oh yeah, and after the first (sadly, only) shot, he went, "is it alright?". Aww. He's sooo friendly. I could have gotten him to take another shot with me! Argh, stooopid me said "it's okay, thanks!". Argh. *slaps forehead, pulls hair. Ah well, i wanna go to town everyday, i might just bump into david again! Marcus, muackerz!!! lol, i know, i got that from somewhere. *Waits for nora to upload photos from her cammy.

Oooh. Just realised david updated his singapore idol blog. He went to Bangkok for a holiday and he really knows how to shop!!! Quotes from SI webby*:

Week of 18 Oct - 24 Oct

Hey hey! I'm back from my holiday in Bangkok! Wow I bought alot of stuff. Enough clothes to totally shed my ah beng image haha. But the craziest thing was my obsession with footwear! I always wondered why girls were crazy about bags and shoes. I found out first hand this trip. When you find shoes you really like, and cheap, you just can't help but buy! Here's a list of the things I bought (for myself only, presents not counted):

One pair of black dress shoes
One pair of Diesel shoes (white and grey)
FOUR pairs of Nike Air Rifts (magenta, pink, white and black)
One pair of white Birkenstocks
Four pairs of flip-flops (white, black, green, brown)
Two belts (one black, one white)
One red watch
One white handphone cover
One white leather wristband
Four tees (two pink, one green, one red)
One blue sleeveless top
Three short sleeve shirts (light blue, red and pink)
Two long sleeve shirts (brown and pink stripes)
One pair of fisherman pants (maroon)
One pair of army print berms
One pair of dark denim 3/4s
Four pairs of boxers (three Spongebob, one Simpsons)
Four pairs of white socks
Two visors (black and pink)
One white vintage Nike bag


Yup that's about it. Know how come I got such a comprehensive list? I actually took the pain to arrange everything that I bought the moment I got home, and took a photo with my phone! Its my wallpaper now. It took me like one hour plus to get it right. Had to move it out from my room to the living room because the light was brighter there. Haha I think I'm crazy.

I guess the trip really cheered me up. Like what girls call Retail Therapy (haha I just think its a lame excuse to shop). Although shopping does make you feel slightly better when you are sad. But whatever it is, I guess the competition is over for me already. No point feeling sad or disappointed or whatever. Just learn from the entire experience and move on.

I need to start making plans for next year. Everyone, especially my second sister (who stays in Melbourne and is a singer herself), encourages me to continue singing. She thinks I should keep up with my singing lessons and maximize what I have been given. And I think I will. I think I have REALLY improved throughout the competition (would have improved more, if only... Argh! Haha). In fact, my vocal range stretched by at least a couple of notes! The high notes I used to struggle with, I can hit effortlessly now. So I think I'll continue singing. If I don't get any offers, I might try to get some gigs at lounges and stuff, and do some singing part-time. That way, I can keep up my exposure, and it'll be a way to fund my singing lessons as well. And it'll be fun! So if any pub owners or hotel lounge operators are reading this, David Yeo is available!

He wouldn't have a problem shopping with his future wife, no doubts about it.

Snap snap~ Okay, the second highlight of the weekend is, i think i'm crushing on someone in RP! No queries please, i'm putting my thoughts here so that i can read it again when i'm 30 or something. It's my journal, whether you read it or you don't, i'm free to write anything i like. Oh. My. Gawd. I think he's sooooo darn cute. And i swear i was trying to look at him the whole time last night. Gah! *Slaps forehead another time. I didn't even get his name! I'm stupid fool la. I haven't got proper sleep till now. The thing started at 7pm. It was games/movie marathon last night and i think i took a half an hour nap when it was about 6am plus or something. On my way home, i slept on the bus, for about 30 minutes and i was thinking about the "stooopid jamie, why didn't you chat with david?" the whole time. It's 10:41am now, and i'm not sleeping yet. I don't know why, i can't sleep! I think i'm typing my most enjoyable entry so far. Ack, i'm smiling to myself. Silly me. 미친. Is that supposed to look like that? Ah, check my korean dictionary another time.

On a side note, ladies and gentlemen, i hate angeline lim for giving me 3 C's in a row for my problem solving module. Last semester, ranga wouldnt even do that to me! And i got a full score for the quiz last week (compared to the other weeks) and she still gave me a C? I am so mad. So mad. I tried so hard and she gave me a freaking C? She is so, so~ pissing me off. One more C next week (4 C's in a row!!!), and i'll kill myself literally. Bloody idiot, as if i care. But, i DO care about about my grades! I'm one confused idiot.

... I am the world's greatest complainer.

27 October 2004

I can't wait to shop next week! Woo hoo! That pink Scottish-like skirt! Well, the name "Forever 21" sounds a bit corny but hey, they have like everything there. A long queue to the fitting room on a WEEKDAY. That skirt better not be gone, and if it does, nora and i will probably whine`.

4 days for my Stairway to Heaven episode 11 video download through Bit Torrent to reach 71.0%. I think it'll reach 100% in 2 days time.

Soon, and finally i'll get to watch an episode with korean dubbing and english subtitles rather than the chinese dubbing and malay subtitles.

26 October 2004

Confused. Afraid. Whatever. I don't know what's going on. -_- It's hard to please everyone isn't it? i don't know.

바보~ I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate school. That was some finger exercising- no copy and paste, i'm just venting my frustrations on my keyboard. I'm stooooopid.

Lurvvvvve stairway to heaven. Had my daily dose of STH. Cried my eyes out. I don't think i can take the sad ending. I'll follow you wherever the place you go. Be it heaven.

24 October 2004

To buy or not to buy. -_- That stairway to heaven necklace! I found it in yahoo auctions!! It's not authentic though, i saw the authentic one in some korean website the other time and it's selling at 814,000 won (about 1K plus in SGD). They're selling it for SGD79.90. I'm frantic. Should i buy it? Besides, i've just got my pay yesterday! Right, my 1 month pay gone right away if i bid on the necklace. My mom demanded to check my bank book the other day. She thinks i'm spending a lot recently. Argh. Talk about going out with emily next week. -_-;

21 October 2004

VB sucks. I'm trying hard to revise all my school work during weekends. I hate being stupid. I hate being in this school. What? School of Info Technology? Pui! I don't know where i'm heading to now. Great, my relatives are going to compare me with their sons studying in JC. I am so not looking forward to Christmas and Chinese New Year.

20 October 2004

"White Chicks" rocks! Right, almost watched some lame jackie chan movie 'cause shi hong did suggest "New Police Story". Hong Kong movies are soo not my type la. Anyway i am still very much deprived of my dose of korean movies. Then again, "White Chicks" rocks totally la. It's soooo "mean girls" and "Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie " genre.

Speaking of Paris Hilton, I am still dreaming of becoming rich one day. That, will only be possible if i land a high paying job, which i highly doubt so. Now tell me what i should write for my essay on "What do you want to achieve in your 3 years in RP?". When i can't even achieve anything at all in the school? Seriously, i've learnt nothing at all, throw me a VB question and i won't be able to answer you.

Alright, apparently i have to start working on a reflection journal and an essay. What a fuss indeed.

Well, the lyrics don't match the song playing now, will update later.

17 October 2004

I so want to strangle my sis. She keeps complaining that she's fat, keeps complaining her thighs are big - she complains 24/7. It's SOOOO irritating, i mean, i do complain at times, but it's not ALL the time! And the fact that she is skinnier than me just irks me. Right, i'll not eat  in school from next week onwards. In fact, i've started last friday. God, please grant my wish.

16 October 2004

Watched the encore telecast of SI spectaculars #1. It reminds me of David, i hope he's coping well by now. He hasn't even log in to friendster at all. Since  30/09/2004. It's going to be harder to watch the encore telecast of SI spectaculars #2 next week. Oh yeah, i've stopped watching SI already, in fact, i tune in to malaysian channel on weekdays  for "stairway to heaven" and it just so happens that the time slot of stairway and SI clashes. So i had to prioritize. David's out, what's more to look out for? Right, chrissypoo is cute but he's not performing well anyway.

My heart can't take it anymore. No, i'm not referring to David. Guess I have to run to another blog now.

14 October 2004

Incompetent. I don't want to feel that way, but i can't help feeling incompetent in my group. I feel so helpless in the group. A "B+" for VB is gone for me. I need to change for my grades! Apparently my mom is not keen on sending me overseas, she thinks it's a waste of money because in reality, Singaporeans go to foreign U's because they're stupid. And that's what Emily thought so too. Fine, my future career is ruined. The dream of having a high paying salary is dashed. With lousy grades, how to get into a local U? It's no point having just a RP diploma. This is how MUCH i hate the school.

It's the 4th day and i'm missing the holidays. I didn't even look forward to the reopening of a new semester. Can't wake up late, bla bla bla... I hate rushing to school everyday. I had my worst bus rides today. Slept on my way to school, and my head swayed to the shoulder of the lady sitting beside me. And she gave me "that" type of look. Apparently, "sorry" is not enough for her. Whatever. I said i'm sorry and i meant it! The worst part was, i slept on my way home too. I was sitting next to a lady again, and yeah my head swayed to her shoulder. I said sorry to 2 complete strangers today. It was embarrassing enough as the bus was kinda packed on my way home. Whatever, i couldn't care much about this world anymore. Right, life sucks for you guys. I may look normal, but life sucks for me too. My life, ruined by RP itself. Shattered dreams.

11 October 2004

School reopened today, and i'm not loving it. Today's new facilitator just pisses me off. I miss ranga, wholeheartedly, man. What's her name again? - Angeline Lim, what an act like Jerry Ong. Angeline Lim - Can't facilitate, acts like she can, acts like she's a doctor like ranga but she's NOT. Jerry Ong - Can't Sing, acts like he can, acts like he's a great singer like an idol but he's NOT. Whatever, la.

Anyways, got to watch the very first episode of "Stairway to Heaven" on malaysian channel! Been like, waiting for it! It's as nice as i've expected it to be... The story always start with childhood days... this is what i like most about Korean dramas.

I'll be a couch potato from today onwards. Korean drama for me - monday to friday! Yipee! Malaysia rocks!

8 October 2004

I'm freaking pissed. How could a constipated voice win the hearts of singaporeans, once again kicked Jeassea and then, David out of the competition? If Jerry is what singaporeans want as their idol, by all means, vote him as your idol and let him disgrace Singapore on the World Idol stage. I'll migrate to Korea immediately.

For gawd's sake, i know 90% of SI viewers hates Jerry. But the problem is, viewers don't even bother to vote. And when that happens, voters primarily consists of the finalist's friends/family/relatives. And this is why Jerry is still in. His friends/family/relatives obviously know that he'll be out so they vote like there's no tomorrow. Viewers don't even bother to vote for David and Jeassea 'cause they thought that they'll get through for sure. I, myself regretted not voting. I'm sure other david fans didn't vote too. They all thought that he would get through for sure. I thought the same way too.

Christopher's another one. Right, i thought he was cute from the very start, but he's performing from bad to worse. Why is he still in the competition? His family is darn rich la, and the fact that female viewers voted irresponsibly. Yeah yeah they think he is so cute so they voted for him. Although i think he's cute, i wouldn't even vote for him. We are not voting for eye-candy idol you know.

Fine so everyone's not bothering about voting, so by all means let jerry kick olinda and leandra next. In fact, i'm waiting for that to happen. You see, when you eliminate jessea, david, olinda, leandra and that jerry is still in the competition, something is REALLY wrong. I'm sure there'll be a public outcry and the producers would have no choice to bring them all back and change something about the competition. I'm sure the fellas at mediacorp don't want to disgrace themselves by sending a lousy singer to the world idol stage, after all they bought the show from Simon Fuller. It'll be more disgracing if we lose to the Malaysian Idol, Jac. After all, one of the judges said she is "better than Fantasia/able to beat Fantasia".

So tell me, what's the whole point in watching on? Bring David and Jeassea back, you morons!

 2 October 2004

My mom didn't want to bring me to the private isetan sale yesterday. Hrmph. 3 private tickets down the drain. Wanted to go there with my sis, but my mom said i would need the isetan card to pay for the items. Yea, the private sale is gone. But the public sale is still going on. Sheesh, don't feel like going for that. I think it's worse. My mom actually asked me whether i was still interested to go Isetan today. Should i go? I need more clothes. Ha, i luuurvve my Zara layered skirt!

1 October 2004

I can't believe Jeassea got the boot. I hate to say this, but i think,

Singaporeans are BLIND and TONE-DEAF. Exclude me, i'm not one of the voters. I intend to vote when the whole thing gets even more serious.

Jeassea is every inch Idol material. She is not my favourite, but she is seriously wayyyyyy better than Jerry. Jeassea is pretty. She can sing and perform well, why the heck is she out of the competition? I feel sorry for Jerry because he has to face the hash media - he knows he can't sing well and everyone's blaming him for literally kicking Jeassea out. Maybe Jerry has very supportive church mates, and everyone thought that people would vote for Jeassea so they didn't vote for her themselves? And thus the shocking results? I don't know man. Watched Malaysian Idol after the results. Malaysia channels have weird time slots. 9.45pm for a live show. I've just realised the top 3 Malaysian Idol finalists sing wayyy better than most of our Singapore Idol finalists. And you know what one of the Malaysian Idol judges said? He told Dina and Jac, "You are the only ones who can beat Fantasia Barrino." For the moment, i was like, "huh?". But seriously, you should listen to the 2 Malaysian ladies sing. They are indeed good la.

What will become of Singapore Idol now that Jeassea is gone?

30 September 2004

*Cries! Now that i've bought my zara black skirt and washed it, I tried it on again and it feels like it got expanded! Argh, so much for listening to Pamela and got the UK 8. I could fit into UK 6 and UK 8 of that skirt yesterday when i tried it. Took UK 8 cause I remembered my prom dress was a UK 8. Well, but cuttings of dresses and skirts are kinda different sometimes right? My fox skirt is a UK 6 too, now that i've checked. Now that i've just remembered the skirt is of spandex material, i could have gotten a UK 6! I remember reading from some magazine saying something like this: "When buying clothing of spandex material, always buy a size smaller than your usual size and make sure it fits just nice, because spandex will expand". Now my skirt is slightly bigger than UK 8, i couldn't imagine how it will expand after a few washes! Maybe not THAT much, but the fact that my skirt expanded after one wash just irks me! No point crying over spilt milk though. Lesson learnt. Anyway, thanks Pamela for putting up with constant choosing of clothes and trying them. 1/12 of my wish list fulfilled, at least.

Had the worst nightmare last night. Yes, i can remember some parts of it. It freaked the hell out of me! I dreamt that David Yeo was some serial mass killer, locked us all up in a HDB flat and made us jump to our death altogether. Yes, something like that, and i remembered a part where he had to hurry to Caldecott Hill for his live performance because i reminded him that it's a Thursday (how dumb, i know), he left us all locked up, and I was trying of ways to escape with my friend. Couldn't remember who that friend was anyway. Horror, indeed. And do i see you laughing there?

Anyway, I can't wait for "The Spectaculars #1" later. Hopes Beverly gets the boot. I will cringe when I see Sylvester's fake and horrid smile later.

29 September 2004

Was supposed to watch RE with mich (yes, die hard RE fan there) and apparently the GV webby lies to its patrons. Poor Mich had to grumble, kinda cute actually, lol. First time I saw her grumble so much lol. Glad to hear that she's watching it tomorrow, after all she waited for sooooo long. And I'm still waiting for "100 days with Mr Arrogant" and "My Little Bride" to be screened here. I'm deprived of Korean movies lately. Met Pam before that for shopping and helping in her homework. I don't see how i helped anyway. Just gave very vague points of my view on freedom. Freedom means being able to travel overseas with friends, yes Korea definitely. I sooooo~ want to go Korea.

 ♥제이미♥ "An en: i dont even have money to fly to korea
 
♥제이미♥"An en: pretty sad
 Shawn.A.Happ: =/ maybe u can work? and save it up?
 Shawn.A.Happ: i think i am going there end of the year
for 3 mths
♥제이미♥ "An en: yeah prob is, my mom doesnt want to go
there with me
 Shawn.A.Happ: oh..maybe u can go wif me? haha joking
♥제이미♥ "An en: i have to wait till im like an full
adult?
♥제이미♥ "An en: it sucks being 17
Shawn.A.Happ: =x
Shawn.A.Happ: i am only 18+

For once, i wished i was old enough to travel.

Results are FINALLY out. I shouldn't be too happy. I missed my B+'s. I want only A's and B+'s. Jason said one must at least get A's and B+'s for all modules in order to get into local U. And look, i got a plain B for my 2 most hated modules. I should start taking special interest in science and VB too.

Student Name: SOONG WEI LING JAMIE  
Program of Student: Diploma in Business Computing
 
Academic Year/Term: 2004/2005 Semester 1

 

Module Code Module Title Grade Grade Points
A101 Basic Science I B 3.0
A111 Basic Numerical & Computer Applications I B 3.0
G101 Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving I B+ 3.5
G103 Culture and Communication I B+ 3.5
G105 Enterprise Skills I A 4.0
  Cumulative GPA 3.40

Right, they said application for transfer is now open. I want to transfer out of Business Computing since this course is STILL under the school of IT. 'Nuff said. You know how's the IT economy is thriving now. It's like saturated. Problem is, i don't know if Biomedical Sciences is my cup of tea. Should I just wait for the application of transfer to New Media to be opened? I think i should. I cannot imagine myself working in a pharmacy.

Something my friend in NYP said made me hate the school even more.

To the world: tt day my lecturer say something abt ur
sch
To the world: haha
To the world: but dun say better
To the world: lol
♥제이미♥ "An en: what!
♥제이미♥ "An en: say say
♥제이미♥"An en: i demand you to say
To the world: lol
To the world: cos tt time we doin technoprenuship
To the world: den say abt human resource thing ma
To the world: den he ask us which poly will we choose
To the world: after that he say rp dunno wad
To the world: say dunno how to apply something
To the world: lol
♥제이미♥"An en: huh, why RP?
♥제이미♥"An en: i dont get it
♥제이미♥"An en: rephrase?
To the world: i oso cant remember wad he say actually
liao
To the world: lol
To the world: but something bad abt rp and outside world potray
whether how they will choose the employee

I think what my friend was trying to say is that: Employers will choose other poly graduates over us (Republic Poly graduates) because of something - our learning style i guess. And to hear a LECTURER say that, it's pretty depressing. I wonder if the local universities look at us that way too. This brings me to a conclusion: I soooo want to go to a local U and not be a Republic Poly Diploma holder.

26 September 2004

What a day, got drenched in salt water but well i got a tan! Even without the sun tan lotion! Yippee! Today's the third BBQ of the month. THIRD. Tried to help out in the BBQ by painting honey on the sausages but some rotaract club person from sister club SMU said i was more like having fun painting the sausages because i was overdoing it. Indeed there were 2 honey-infested sausages done by me. I'm pretty proud of that actually. And he thought i'm Malay or something. We were all talking and then he said something like, "Why you all speak chinese to her and she replies back in english, is she malay or somehing?" and he goes, "Are you malay?" You know what, for that very moment, i wanted to joke that i'm Korean. Haha, I guess I'm thinking too much about Won Bin and Kim Jae Won, and lately David Yeo, (he looks like lee byung hun!!!!) Anyway, i don't know if i'm rude for doing that, but it has became a habit. It's hard to kick. I do that to my secondary school friends too, and i think they're used to it too. I do try to reply in mandarin sometimes, i dont wanna sound like a snob ya know.

I ate chocolate cake today. Bad. But well, nice cake chosen by Jia Lin though. I have this love-hate relationship with chocolate. Don't know why. I hate loving chocolate.

25 September 2004

I'm definitely not racist but i think i have to agree with nora that malay girls with tudong (whatever you spell it) are soooo bitchy. I was on the verge of slapping one. Seriously. Or maybe it's just her! She's disgrace to all malay girls with tudong, la. Enough of malay girls with tudong.

20 September 2004

Just had my morning jog. Lemme slack around and rest before i call Pauline for more assignments. I'm currently tutee-less. The boy moved all the way to Jalan Kayu, and i can't travel that far, so well, end of assignment.

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I've got another assignment -around town area... cool, it's kinda near school. I took like almost one whole hour looking for the apartment! So many condominiums around that area! When i reached the place, i couldn't even enter the lift lobby! I had to call the parent to unlock the lobby gate! I was a bit worried when the agent told me that they're some foreigners from india. But it turned out that they're taiwanese! You know, i'm not surprised because this is not the first time the agent gave me wrong information. The poor girl has like tons of english assessment books! like ten of them!!! And i had to flip through one by one to check for empty exercises to let her complete. She's very hardworking, 90% of her 10 assessment books are almost done! Although with the fact that she's a foreigner, I don't think she has a problem dealing with English Langauge. Seriously. Tuition is just a supplementary for her. And i thought i would have a hard time teaching foreigners the English Language. Luckily it didn't turn out that way.

18 September 2004

Chartered night. After this event, I've changed my mind on quitting Rotaract. I just realised the guests who came for the event were one bunch of rich people. The whole rotary family consists of working adults and professionals, and including tertiary students from SMU, NP, NYP, and SP. Everyone exchanged namecards and so on, i got one from this old man with loads of gold on him, but i left the name card with Aza 'cause i had no pockets on me and i didn't want to be seen around holding the old man's name card ya know. He's kinda weird, he gives everyone his name card, and his own book he wrote i think. I read from his name card that he was well known detective and was awarded with loads of medals by the police force or something in the past. But anyway, the other reason i stayed on because i heard from Andrew that there's a confirmed trip to Malaysia come December this year! And i heard there's more to come, there'll be a confirmed trip to Chicago next June! Just imagine what i can do there!

I was assigned to usher the guests with Aza. One funny guy who always said i demoralized him. Walking around with heels can be a chore. And what did i get, - BLISTERS. Oh yeah, i prefer my ushering days back then in secondary school with my blazer and tie, heels with leggings. Sigh, how i miss my secondary school life.

17 September 2004

I'm still feeling a bit sleepy, after a 6-hour nap the moment i reached home from the chalet stay. I don't seem to get enough sleep no matter how much i sleep, i think something is wrong with my biological clock or something. I slept throughout the 2 nights of the chalet stay - i think it has got something to do with that overnight stay at the Esplanade. We were the 3 vagrants walking around town, walked from Cineleisure all the way to the Esplanade. Thank goodness we caught a midnight movie before that, which made time-killing much more easier. We watched "The Terminal", and at some point of the movie cried. I swear it's no tearjerker, but it just made me cry. In case you think i cry at all movies, i just want to clarify, I DON'T. I didn't cry watching Mean Girls, Windstruck nor the Stepford Wives and what not. The only ones that made me cry were Titanic, My Sassy Girl, The Classic, Brotherhood (Taegukgi), and the latest, The Terminal.

Enough of movies, back to the chalet stay. I hate to count the amount of calories i've ate so far this month. First it was my sis's birthday BBQ. Then it's the chalet BBQ. I think i'm going to evolve from a jigglypuff to a wigglypuff sooner or later if i don't stop this pigging of food with high calories. Moreover, i sleep so much, it's no wonder i'm ballooning up. I'm so sorry for occupying the beds for 2 nights. I thought i could stay up longer, but i just shutted down without myself knowing. Anyway i think i got a tan from the visit to wild wild wet! But it's not that obvious though. Now that the holidays are here, I'm going to jog under the sun every morning, just to lose that extra pounds and get a tan!

14 September 2004

Today is the day i leave the house fer good. for 4 whole days, i meant. How cool is it to leave the house at 7pm. I didn't even tell my mom in advance, she just saw me packing and i told her i'm leaving soon. I LOVE being out of home when she's around at home. I can't tolerate her noise in the house. Heading for an overnight stay at the Esplanade and then head for the chalet at Downtown East. Going to meet Nora and Marcus @ city hall later, and i'm running late. The three of us are staying over at the Esplanade tonight, how cool is that. I'm so` excited!

13 September 2004

I CAN'T STAND MY MOM. Okay it's my fault. I can't keep my mouth shut. But i really find it difficult to keep it inside! I can just quarrel with her about anything. Quarrel about where i put my bag, quarrel about where i put my shoes and that constant nagging of asking me to switch off the PC. I feel like leaving the house without a word and head for esplanade without telling her, and then come back after 4 days. Hate her. I know i shouldn't be hating her, but she forced me to. X-X

12 September 2004

Eeks. I feel fat. Ate too much last night. Chicken wings, potato, and anything you can think of in a BBQ list. Everything's oily and fried! To top it off, i ate a piece of strawberry and chocolate cake with THICK whipped cream. I ate millions of calories i guess, and it's slowly converting itself to fats now. Bad. Pam's feeling lazy today, she doesn't want to jog today! I want to go swimming!!! Blame it on seventh month. I can feel fats building up now. Sheesh.

Oh yeah, check this out. My cousin came for the party yesterday and he asked me to check out this site, www.stevenlim.net . I find it really obscene. Seriously.  Thick skinned fella.

I'm bored. I want to shop. If I stay at home any longer, I'll munch up all the junkies from yesterday's BBQ. Actually one can burn calories from shopping. I'm not kidding, I read it from some website i remember. All the more I should shop. I don't mind window shopping too. It all boils down to burning calories from walking.

Oh Pam just messaged me to force her to jog. Yeay! Preparing my stuffs now...

11 September 2004

I'm quoting this from yvonne's friendster profile. Got to know about it when she wrote me a testimonial last night. Aww so sweet, and i so~ agree with her. I miss the times. I really do. Life in RP can't be compared to YCK, gawd, i can't believe that's coming from my  mouth.

Here's it from yvonne:

Never in my life would I thought I would miss YCK. I miss 402. Turn back time and I'll cherish those times.
I miss the times we crap with Miss Ng.
I miss the times Mrs John would teach.
I miss the times we tried to laugh at Mrs Goh lame jokes.
I miss the times Mr Mah made us memorise the Physics TYS.
I miss the times Miss Ow would teach us Chem bonding.
I miss the times Miss Ng taught us about history.
I miss the times Miss Ng urging us to study when no one cares.
I miss the times Mrs John would stare at us and spur us on.
I miss the times Mdm Zhang Wei being crappy with Kaa Lok and Tian Qi.
I miss the times Mdm Zhang Wei brought food for us.
I miss the times seeing Tian Qi trying to beat Suat Meng in chinese.
I miss the times the guys come in all wet after break.
I miss the times we complain about how lousy the teachers were.
I miss the times we argued but stay united.
I miss the times seeing Kaa Lok teasing Pamela and Jamie.
I miss the times counting how many days Kaa Lok pon school.
I miss the times we had water fights.
I miss the times seeing Timothy teasing Stanley.
I miss the times we see Jamie being blur.
I miss the times we trying to get hold of Jamie's wallet.
I miss the times every morning Jamie would relate to us about 'The Bachelor'.
I miss the times seeing Pamela trying to whack Kaa Lok, Yuk Wai, Julian with her Amaths text book.
I miss the times we ran for breaks.
I miss the times we played Dai Dee in class.
I miss the times we bought food up to class.
I miss the times we were so afraid of being caught for bringing food.
I miss the times we took turns to smuggle food up.
I miss the times Kevin would blast music in class like nobody's Business.
I miss being under this dictatorship. Even though we suffered under the hands of our dearest dowager, deep down...

I'm blogging away in my blogger blog. It hurts. I seek solace in my private blogger blog.

10 September 2004

Went shopping with Nora and Marcus today. It was totally unintentional. We wanted to window shop. But we ended up shopping. How could you not resist unbelievable offers! Being broke is another thing. Spending wisely is another.

7 September 2004

I spent 10 bucks on the taxi ride early in the morning. I'm broke, I'm broke, I'm broke! Went jogging with Nora during the 1st-2nd meeting break. We jogged from school, all the way to the Tanglin Mall area. That's a great achievement, clap for me! I'm sooo glad she wanted to go jogging too. Yong tau foo for me everyday. No prata, nor fries! No more LJS nor Macdonalds. I'm beginning to treat RP like my home. I shower there, walk around school in wet hair and go for lessons. I wished they had a hostel here in school. Sometimes I just don't feel like going home.

5 September 2004

Dieting did not work for me at all. My first day was perfect, but then i sucummbed to ice cream and chocolates the next day. I figured an exercise regime will be perfect. Today is the first session of my exercise regime. Got Pam as my official weekly-exercise companion. I told her about my plan of having this weekly exercise, if either one of us got our period, we'll jog, otherwise, it's swimming! Actually wanted to swim, but just remembered it's 7th month, so better be safe than sorry. I'm not superstitious la, it's just a precaution. I'm so glad Pam agreed to do this weekly-exercise with me. Yeas, she pulled her Victor along. Glad they're back together again, after all the agony, crying and pain.

So there was  me, my weekly-exercise companion, and her other half for the weekly-exercise. Oh well, I felt odd just now. Eeks, I hate the things lovey dovies do, they make me cringe! Jogged my way to Yio Chu Kang MRT station from home, no, actually, i started walking from Seasons Park to the MRT station. Well, i did jog from my house, all the way to Emily's house at Seasons Park. Jogged about 6 laps at the stadium. I think i ran a lot today, yippee! One step closer to losing weight.

It was shopping after exercise for me. Somebody please slap me, i think i'm overspending. I need to start managing my money wisely from tomorrow onwards. I'm going to draw a "Monthly expenses" table in my lil' pink organiser. I got myself a cherry red flounce skirt from Fox apparel! Just what I wanted! Sad, it wasn't applicable for discount (they're currently having a sale), it's under "New arrivals". Hrmph. Anyway, heard from Nora that Dorothy Perkins restocks on Wednesdays. That also implies that a 30-50% sale will be on! YEAYYYY~~~ Nora, shall we have weekly retail therapy? I'm feeling high suddenly! Having a part-time job makes it all worthwhile to shop. I wasn't into shopping during secondary school 'cause i had my priorities on assessment books and extra textbooks. I visited Popular almost every week without fail, checking out the latest guide books, ten year series and textbooks. I didn't want my mom to pay for my assessment and extra textbooks back then, so I had to save. Intensive shopping came into my world after i got my first pay from HangTen. The hard work was all worthwhile, I enjoy shopping, totally.

I love shopping.

Shopping = money.

Thus, I love money.

I need to marry a rich man. Sheesh, I'm kidding. I can depend on myself. It'll be good if my partner  is rich, but if he's not, i'll still love him just as much. Oops, thinking way too far already. Shall stop here.

4 September 2004

I need a weekly-exercise companion! Not only Darryl said i grew rounder, my auntie said, "Jamie, I think you've put on weight!". Gawd. I was lost for words. I replied NICELY, "I think so." So now that 2 people said i've gained weight, i so~ need to exercise! I don't even have to check my weight, just "YOU HAVE GAINED WEIGHT" from 2 people is enough.

31 August 2004

What a day i had today. Today's module is one of my most dreaded ones. Yesh, it's Basic Science. Today's topic is more on the physics side, something about light and rainbows. Oh yeah, the rainbow DOES NOT  have 7 colours. Anyway, Dr Tan Lay Pheng gave me a shock today. She's my relief facillitator for two weeks. Most of us don't like her la, apparently she's too chirpy for us. Oh yeah, she gave me a shock by telling me, "you're on your way to A" early in the meeting. I was like thinking, "huh? No, no... I'm going back to sec school later so i'll be doing nothing in the team". Oh well, it's teachers' day celebration, what can i do? I kinda miss my school too, what~

Rushed back to school with nad and reached about 12.30 like that, apparently, the celebration started at about 12.20 so i'm not that late la. As usual, when von and matt so me, they were like, "why are you so late?", "what's with your handphone, holding on to one that has a flat battery-" and all that la. Saw Miss Ng and she called me "princess jamie" lol... I think it was probably because of the pink stuffs on me. Hmm, Miss Ng is really getting prettier day by day. Remembered she looked very different when i was in secondary one... Madam Zhang Wei permed her hair, i couldn't help saying the "perm" in english as I really do not know what is "perm" in chinese. I tried my very best to speak to her in chinese, after all she was  my chinese teacher. I feel rude speaking to her in english, so i mixed broken chinese and english together. Felt like an idiot speaking to my chinese teacher. The celebration was awesome, they had "YCKSS idol", which i reckon that part really sucks. But there was one performance that caught me totally. The retro dance by this guy and a few girls in hippy clothes, it was some chinese oldie song they were dancing to, it's damn cool~ Rushed back to RP by sharing cab with matt and dominic (they were on their way to heeren), have to really thank them, i really saved a lot by sharing the cab fee with them. My money should be well spent on shopping instead. I felt even more guilty when Dr Tan said I had the potential to get an 'A' for my daily grade today during the last meeting. I didn't even do a thing besides the worksheet. Aikss. It's so unfair to my team mates. I feel bad.

Here's the climax of today's post: When I ate at the school canteen with nad matt and pam, we saw darryl. Know what he said? He said that i've grown rounder! That is so kind of him right? Hrmph. I think he is so right, i'm going to start my diet plan from tomorrow onwards. No more junkies, no more in between snacks. I'm feeling like a jigglypuff. Seriously i do. I mean, for someone who hasn't seen you for like more than half a year, and commented that you've grown rounder (!!!!), THAT IS REALLY BAD. I got really hit by the comment and i couldn't even do my RJ. I had Marcus laughing at me when he saw my msn nick. Lol, anyway, he turned to make me laugh too, my dad was like, "jamie, jamie, why are you laughing to yourself?". I felt like a retard, it's all marcus' fault for being such a kuku( don't really know what kuku means anyway, it's just a stupid term.)!! Told him some juicy info about his pasar malam girl. Inspired by the info, he changed his nick to - "MY DARLING PASAR MALAM GIRL'S HALF JAPANESE.. OOH EXOTIC BABE!! *SWOOOONS*HER NAMES FIONA!" The fact that he just "loves" his pasar malam girl for her dressing style, not a real crush, and he worships her like, a celebrity whenever she walks past the class - this was why i laughed so hard.

Starting from tomorrow onwards. Persevere, Jamie! Persevere!

30 August 2004

Just finished my RJ. I know Mr Jason is extremely disappointed in our performance in class today. I can see that he feels like giving up on the class. But it's all PBL's fault that we've turned out that way. I resent PBL. I'm sure the majority population of RP feels the same way as i do. They call it "facilitator's day" tomorrow? Then why don't they give a holiday the next day like pri schs/sec schs/jcs do? We youths in poly don't even get to celebrate youth day. Is this some kind of biasness they give to poly students? Everything's so unfair. PM Mr Lee Hsien Loong wants youths to speak up. Should I speak up on behalf of all poly students? Just kidding. I don't have the courage to do so.

I'll be going back to my secondary school tomorrow. Yeays. Will be meeting up with loads of mates tml. Miss them like hell. Miss secondary school life like hell. Arghs, totally forgot about watching "friends" and it's 11:13PM now, i'm not even revising for tomorrow's test yet. Okay, gotta start now.

28 August 2004

Pam was supposed to come over in the morning but it was cancelled last minute 'cause I had to meet up with Mich, Nora and Marcus for movie. Apparently I thought she could just pop by and get her stuffs done and we'll head to town together. But that is so not the case. She needs to talk badly, i feel so sorry for not being there. Sigh, love makes one troubled. Love's so horrible aint it. Eeks, I'm talking crap like a lovesick. After seeing what Pam has gone through, I'm just glad I'm not tied down by such stuff... I've never experienced love (okayyy i did, with stooopid puppy love), okay maybe, love from my dog. Yes, Winnie does show me love. Sometimes, dogs are better off than humans. She listens to my complaints and cries (yes i do talk to my dog), bark at my younger sis for hitting me, it's just  everything my dog does that make me feel loved.  I thank God for such a wonderful creation. I love my dog. But I just hate the kind of love that makes people go crying, just like what is happened to Pam now. I can't imagine myself going through such stuff, i'll just die. I'm known to be emotionally weak like Pam too. You might say I don't know anything about love, yes i admit - I DON'T KNOW and I don't want to know. My dream guy is too far away from me. I doubt I ever meet such a guy in my 3 years of study in my dumb school. Why should I ever bother looking for him in RP? It's fun being single. I don't see the point why people think that you have to get attached in poly. No no. That is so not me.  I'll let fate decide everything then. I still miss a certain someone.

Enough crap said, I am no lovesick girl. I don't need a guy in my life yet. Anyway, went to watch Stepford Wives instead of 13 going on 30. Nice show. Didn't know it's a 1975 remake until I read about it in 8days. I so agree what they have to say in the movie. Nobody can be too perfect. Everything's fake when it's too perfect. I don't ask for my dream guy to be perfect. I am no perfectionist. But in some sense, yes i am - I want A's! I frown whenever i see a grade lower than B. Sometimes I even frown at the sight of B's. Miss Karen hasn't been giving me my A's ever since the team switch. I hope to do well in my upcoming enterprise UT. But i have this premonition that my UT grade will drop. Don't ask me why. 

27 August 2004

I seriously think i have a very high tolerance and patience with kids. Yes, you got me right, kids. I had tuition just now, straight right after school. My 8-year-old tutees - Samuel and Germaine. Put two 8-year-old kids together and they'll drive me nuts, but well, i don't show it. I actually have very level of tolerance. I gave Germaine the remaining3 pages to do and after half an hour, only half a page done. - She was doodling in her assesment book, making holes in the pages and a verbal fight with samuel on some eraser. And Samuel, being very weak in counting time, got so distracted in the eraser fight. i couldn't even get him to look at what I'm writing on his book!

On the other hand, they're pretty cute too! They were talking about the Singapore Idol Piano show last night! Oh yea, Germaine said she likes Jessea. She said Jeassea is the pretty girl with shiny makeup. Oh yeah, they even know david yeo looks like an "ah beng". Primary 2 kids watch Singapore Idol? I was kinda shocked actually. One more point to add, they mentioned about the banana man too. Samuel tried imitating the "Ring, ring ring ring, banana phone... Ring ring ring ring banana phone!~" - Aww so cute.

26 August 2004

The start of Singapore Idol fever. Gawd. Gawd. Gawd. David Yeo has a smile like Lee Byung Hun, and most importantly, he's handsome and has got great personality (seen on tv la, who knows what he's like in real life?). Anyways, i still think he's got the talent, looks and personality! He's my first fave SI contestant. Man, he's studying law in NUS. Ya know what, I jokingly told my friend that we'll look for him when we're at NUS for some talk next week. I know, I'm being a nutcase here. Ignore me. I'm not nuts about that guy la, i just think he's good. 'nuff said.